You're not weird at all. You are who you are and you should never feel bad for that.
I can at least let you know you're most definitely not alone. I myself have never been in an actual relationship in all my adult or teen years.... yet the idea of it, the idea of intimacy and kissing ... always scared me more than anything. Yet I kind of want a relationship, so long as it's really just having someone there to be with so that I'm not alone in this world.
Cuddling is probably all I could handle and even then.... not for too long. We're all different, we all have different likes and dislikes and what might feel right to someone else won't certainly be your cup of tea. That's fine! There's plenty of people out there treading the same waters.
I do hope that made sense.... I swear when I get going I just ramble...