Seriously. I think my healthcare program through the state wants me to just curl up in a corner somewhere and die. They are fucking impossible to get a hold of. Last week, maybe Wednesday I think, I got a letter in the mail saying they never got my redetermination whatever and I no longer have health insurance. So I called up my case manager and got her voice mail. Left a message. Moved on to her email and sent her a message there. Each one gives a response that they'll get back to you within 24 hours. Bullshit. So I waited until 4:00 on Friday afternoon and nothing yet, so I called again. Left another message. Checked my email and nothing there either. Sent another message. Left my phone number, home and work emails, told her a text was fine...figured I'd hear from her by Monday morning. That came and went and nothing. So about an hour ago, I called again. Nothing, again. By now my anxiety is kicking in and telling me shit like, 'you're never going to get insurance again' and 'your teeth are going to rot because you can't afford the dentist on your own' and all this bullshit. So I'm going through phone tree after goddamned fucking phone tree and finally, after maybe a half hour or 45 minutes, I get through to an option that points me where I need to go. Then I wait. And I wait. And I listen to how fucking important my call is to them and thanks for my patience and blah fucking blah answer the goddamned phone already would you?! I'm just about to give up after over a half hour of wait time because fuck that shit when an ACTUAL HUMAN BEING ANSWERS THE PHONE. And I said that to her. I was all 'Oh my god an actual live person' and she laughed and I laughed and we got down to business. She got me re-signed up to their website, got me going on the application, stayed on the phone with me to make sure it went okay, and when I told her I was unhappy with my caseworker, said she would see about placing me with a new one. So now I just have to anxiously wait for the determination on whether or not I should curl up in a corner and die.

But seriously. It's health care. Something I consider a basic human right. Why the actual hell is it so damn hard to get?! Does the government want me to die just because I'm poor? Because that's seriously a dick move. I pay my taxes, I hold down a job, I'm a good person...but apparently I should die because I don't make enough money. AND YET, I make too much money to get certain tax benefits. TOO MUCH MONEY. Seriously. That's what my tax preparer said. WTF EVEN IS THAT?! WOULD YOU LIKE TO SHOW ME WHERE TF THAT MONEY IS BECAUSE I DUN SEE IT. God, there's just SO MUCH bullshit going on right now. Don't even get me started on anything else...school shootings, the environment...goddamnit, all I want to do is live a decent life and not die horribly.

tl;dr: WHY THE HELL IS HEALTH CARE SO HARD TO GET?! I think they seriously would prefer I just curl up in a corner and die, because I don't make enough money.

I'm kidding. Health care is meh because it holds no value in lives; only in cash. [Edit] I really meant it as a joke! It's unfortunate, but it looks like our current health care system is going south very quick. It takes everything to have a human being at the end of the line.

Yeah, I get it's a joke, lol. Our health care system was fine until...well...I won't get into it because it'll start a whole new rant, but let's just say it was fine last year.