Hey everyone, I haven’t posted in awhile here but I needed to vent somewhere about my issues currently going on in my everyday life. First off, I had made a board awhile back about dropping out of school and wanted to say that I finally did. Not because of just what was going on with the classes but also because my mental health was getting really bad. I finally got diagnosed with severe depression which actually runs in my family and finally am starting to understand a lot about my feelings and why they are like that. Not only that but I do know it’s getting really worse to the point where I am laying in bed and just lay there feeling like my energy is completely gone. On top of that somehow life decided that it’s really funny to throw in more issues and keep kicking me even harder. I just lost my job, as well as any friends I had over there at the school. I constantly keep putting up with the local Social Security office’s crap which they decides how fun it would be to lower my disability each month especially when I NO LONGER work at the college. I am constantly having to put up with the same crappy excuses from the city in why they are not improving the area in anyway whatsoever. I also keep wondering why my relatives are not getting the help they so desperately need instead of dumping their responsibilities on me. And finally I keep putting up with the constant reminder of how I am a social outcast and everyone makes it clear especially on social media sites like Tumblr and Facebook. I have already deactivated my Facebook and will do so on my other social media accounts if it gets worse. I understand that I am really unhappy with the way my life is going right now and also know that I do not want to get to the point of just being antisocial. I actually want to do better with my life and really want to let this shit go. Not only that but I really want to make better better choices in what types of friends I make and also have better interests that I really can stick with for a change instead of just quitting after a few weeks. I am trying to find the motivation to do something with myself instead of having to put up with this crap 24/7 but is really hard because of starting to get absolutely disgusted with people in general. Please help! I really don’t know what to do at all and don’t know where to even begin. Any insight or info is greatly appreciated! :o Edit: I also forgot to mention I will be going to a trade school learning how to do Welding next week so please if there are any suggestions I will gladly appreciate it. I don’t want this to mess up too so I really want this to work.

- Oh wow... that's a lot of horrible stuff to deal with at once. I really hope that the welding school works out for you.

I can relate to you on some of the things you said... Like, I tend to become really interested in something and then lose interest after a week or so. I then become discouraged from wanting to quit and I don't pick it back up for a long time. And, I have a hard time keeping friends because of me going through phases of not being social. Most people don't understand that they're not the problem and become impatient with me.

Something I'm learning to do in regards to the hobbies constantly switching is I have a few things that I love to do (i.e. drawing, cooking, video games) and I do whatever I feel like doing. I'm trying to not pressure myself to complete something right away, like beating a game. I want to be able to put something down for a while and come back to it when I'm ready.

This is something you could try. Pick up a few things that you love doing and cycle through them. Write down these hobbies to keep track of what you like or don't like. If there's something that you end up not liking, don't beat yourself up over quitting or don't let it discourage you from trying something else.

The friends thing is very difficult. I used to be disgusted by people because I thought no one cared or only wanted to hurt me. But, I know that's not true now. It took years of cycling through different friends to figure out all of that out. I only have a few friends, but I prefer to have a few friends who accept me and are patient with me than have a bunch of "friends" who only want you around when you're not struggling with life or want to use you.

Finding the right person to be friends with just happens. There's really no magical thing that happens or something specific you can do. Just... talking around and finding the person you click with is really all you can do. For example, one friend I have is someone that randomly talked to me while I was in college and another friend (whom I'm ended up becoming close to) responded to an Issues & Advice thread I made on here about a year ago.

It's discouraging when it turns out that someone you think that you were getting close to ends up not being a good friend (it's happened to me), but it shouldn't stop you from trying to make a new friend who could end up treating you better. There are people out there who will treat you well.