Thank you all so much <3 + apology
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The past couple months have been very difficult for me, especially this month (will explain soon). Your generosity is a bright spot in a very dark month for me, and I wish I had the words to explain just how much that means to me. I received a LOT of gifts - big, small, and everything in between - and I appreciate every. single. one of them. I've hidden the rest under a spoiler in case anyone else may not particularly want to read about what's been going on.
Apology and explanation for no gifts - content warning for family member loss, pet loss, cancer
My grandfather passed away a couple months ago. I spent almost every winter holiday at my grandparents' place for dinner, so it was especially difficult for me to head into December knowing that I had already celebrated my last holiday with him. Then, I woke up to my beloved cat Xaya unable to even lift her own head, despite having been very active just the night before. After a week of hospitalization, with some high points before declining rapidly, we learned that she had pancreatic cancer - an aggressive cancer that apparently lays low until it's ready to strike. I had to say goodbye on the 14th of December, and it's the hardest thing I've ever done. I've barely had the energy to get through each day, much less prepare gifts for anyone, and for that, I'm very sorry. I'd like to say that they're in the mail, but the honest truth is that I don't think I'll be able to send out any gifts. Xaya was always right next to me, for years, and adjusting to a world without her has been incredibly difficult and incredibly draining. A part of me died with her on December 14, and it doesn't seem like it'll be any easier to cope with this any time soon. All my energy right now is going toward taking care of my remaining pets and grieving, so there hasn't been any left for anything else.
Don't worry about replying, none of you need to do that if you're not comfortable with it. As someone with GAD, I know social stuff can be really hard, especially during a time of year that can be difficult for a lot of people.
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Happy holidays, everyone, and I hope your new year is your best to date. <3
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- I'm so sorry to hear about your losses. I don't think anyone could possibly be upset with you for taking a break to work through your feelings and find stability again. Just know people here will be waiting to welcome you back whenever you feel up to it!
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I'm so, so sorry for your losses. I'm glad that I could be part of this small brightness in your day. Keep your chin up love, your grandfather and Xaya will always be with you in spirit and memory. Happy holidays. <3
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I'm really sad to hear this but know that many of us are here for you when you need us. Hugs and I hope you have a much better new year.
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- So sorry to hear this, hun. -hug- You know you can always send me a message if you need someone to talk to. Don't worry about Lumi; take care of yourself. It's never easy to lose anyone close to you, person or pet. I hope you find some solace during the holidays. Sending positive thoughts your way during this difficult time ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear about your sadness. My heart goes out to you and I hope you will find a little more light in your life to help you get through this hard and difficult time. You take care of you and want you need to, don't you worry about anything else. snugglies
that's very sad to hear. Please cheer up and remember all the good memories you had with your grandfather and Xaya. -hugs-
I understand what it's like to loose a beloved cat. Since I was young I was always a cat person and they have been my favorite and most loved animal. Recently I've lost my sweet calico Autumn to old age. I'll always cherish the memories of her from when she would always snuggle on the bed by my feet and the times she had kittens.
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Nothing else matters when you are grieving loved ones who filled your life with so much. Time really does help, not to forget, but to be able to go on each day with the happiness in your heart that you were lucky to have them in your life and share everything that you shared together. I too have had a loss in recent months... Remember to also celebrate the memories and happy times you had. It is so important!
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You take care, and I am sure we will see each other around and make each other smile from time to time. <3 <3 <3
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Thank you all for your very sweet words and understanding. <3 Not going to respond individually, but each of your messages means a lot. I read them each as they were posted, just haven't been able to respond. I'm very sorry for your losses. Sending hugs your way as well. <3 My girl was a calico, too - Mackerel Tabby Calico, I believe she's called, so not a type you often see, but she was really beautiful.
hugs Love ya girl. Hang in there and don't sweat the gifts. That's not what this season is really about anyway.