Currently I wish I could postpone/cancel a holiday as it's not really feeling like the"magical" December I had every other year.

First off, my job is making a game out of weather or not I can switch shifts to spend time with my grandma at church on Christmas day as it would meen alot to her. I've been asking for months and I've only gotten a "don't have a answer" or " I don't see a problem" from the staff. It's now December and I still have no answer, if this continues I'll try to get someone to get them to give me one as I can't play as guessing game on what my hours are Christmas day -has a disability so I do have other people out side of this place that can work with my job for situations like this-

Then as I'm having this looming like a specter in the background, I had a visitor just take a entire bag of things I just donated at my volenteer job that wasn't for them but for the other volunteers and the dogs which both killed my day and my gift giving spirit. If they asked I would have been fine and it could have been a accident. However the guy said he didn't steal when called and no one is saying they gave him them or at lest they aren't telling me if they did.

Now today I realized I missed a day of Melody. That one I was at fault due to distraction with a advent on a mobile game....but I'm normally not forgetful of the advent here so I not only have to kiss the reward from that achivement for visiting every day goodbye but I had to spend 600k-700k sp roughly total to at lest soffen the blow by getting the day 2 gifts I miss.

.....all the while I keep hopeing for a Christmas Miracle and have "Where are you Christmas" stuck in my head and in my heart. I already had a crisis related to my beleafs from this month over why this is "allowed" to happen, I've had bad luck and I've had bad days like everyone else. However not like this at this scale of this month....the Melody thing is minor but that with everything else...