I'm bribing myself with lunch delivered from Panera today, a bribe intent on making me not quit my job. I'm basically being forced to work today, a Saturday, when I have told my boss and the guy that makes the schedule, again and again, that I do not work weekends, a prerogative that my boss said was my right after being here for two years and basically working every single weekend during that time. And yet I am here, sitting at my desk, depressed and exhausted, because I can't afford to lose this job. Saturday is normally my complete rest day, to catch up on sleep, and to do some volunteer work for a political group I'm involved with and gardening volunteer work for the local rec center where I work out. But none of that is happening this weekend because the guy who does the scheduling (We'll call him 'A' for asshole) is an asshole who doesn't understand that he is not the center of the fucking universe. When the schedule came out two weeks ago, I talked to A and explained for the umpteenth time that I don't do weekends, that I have other responsibilities, and he needed to find someone else to do it. A basically said no, that I'm the only one available. Our definitions of 'available' are obviously completely different. So anyways, I talked to the boss above us, and she is hiring another person to cover the gaps in our schedule that I would otherwise have to give up my other responsibilities for.

That brings us to another point, that hiring of another person. I told A that I am not comfortable training anyone. That mainly because of my sociophobia and other similar reasons, including being on the autism spectrum, having another person sit here and basically watch me work, is extremely uncomfortable for me, to the point of making me want to quit. A basically just said 'oh well' and went on with his day. I know my boss, if I talk to her, will just tell me that I have to deal with it too, so there's really no point in talking to her. And the thought of talking to her about this brings up the sociophobia again. It freaks me out and makes me afraid I'll lose my job. So basically, the week after next I have to sit here during two shifts (equalling 16 hours including lunch) and attempt to explain things to a new girl, all the while I am trying not to have a panic attack and looking like an awkward idiot. I am horrible at explaining things (probably due to being somewhere on the autism spectrum) because I do things differently than most people and although I get things done correctly and quickly, my way generally doesn't make sense to anyone else I've been told.

So if I disappear in the next couple weeks, it'll be because I've died of a panic attack.

I don't really care for advice. I know I need to stfu and deal with it. It's just hard for me. Post work-related stories of the bullshit you have to go through? Maybe I'll feel like I'm not the only one who completely can't adult.

im sorry you have to go through this ): it really sucks being in a position where they treat you like dirt but you need the money so you take the abuse and complete lack of care.

I've been a dog trainer for almost 3 years and I'm pretty dang good. However, since the COO of the company doesn't really like me - I get all the crappy shifts and super rediculous clients. Like the ones that don't want to do ANY work with their dog, they just expect me to come over, fix their dog and leave. Of course when I'm there the dog is perfect because I've established boundaries with him. They on the other hand just yell at chief and hit him. I get clients like this all the time.... all. The. Time. While the other trainers get clients who actually love their dogs and want to learn how to train them. Which of course makes me look bad because my clients aren't happy. The only thing keeping me from getting another job is I have no idea what I'd rather do... plus I get paid a lot better than most people in my indrustry.

They ALWAYS PICK MEEEE to train new people. I hate it!!! Especially since they hire people with zero experience. So I'm standing there all day trying to explain dog behavior to these people who don't even know calming signals.

Plus like... 98% of my friends are there... lol. If I left I'd be more lonely than I am now.

Well this is all too familiar, so you have my sympathy. I know you said you don't want advice, and that's good, because I have none. It's just nice to rant sometimes. X'D

I've told my scheduler over and over that I do not want overtime, I do not want to work long shifts, I do not want to work 6 or 7 days a week...stop scheduling me like that. And stop calling me when I finally get a day off to ask if I'd like to "pick up some extra hours" - NO, ffs, I would not, and you know it. Yet here I am working a 12 hour shift right now. It was 10 last night. They seem understanding, at least, it's just that we don't have enough people. I get it, that is somewhat beyond their control, although there are probably things they could do to promote better retention. Unfortunately, it's the good, reliable employees that get stuck with everything crappy because lesser employees just laugh at them and quit when they get that ridiculous schedule. Or are asked to do basically anything. My job doesn't tend to attract the most dedicated workers.

I also despise training people. I haven't complained to them specifically about that but they know I like to be left alone. One of the biggest reasons I got the job I have is so I can be alone all night and generally not have to deal with people. And they know that because that's why I requested my specific assignment. Yet I keep getting stuck with training new people. I try to look on the bright side: well, at least we have more employees! So all these damn hours should get spread around better and I won't have to work stupid shifts! But nah, they always quit a week later or "don't work out" or whatever and here I am for 12 hours again. sigh

I actually like my company (I've worked for some that I could swear must be headquartered in Actual Hell so I can appreciate a halfway decent employer) and I mostly like my job, as jobs (i.e. not careers) go. But most people are just terrible, unreliable, incompetent...and those of us who aren't that way always have to pick up the slack and it sucks. More work is always the "reward" for doing a good job. Meh.

, that's the actual worst. I'm so sorry.

My boss is incompetent. I'm not sure exactly what he does. He's been in the industry over 30 years, has been running the business for at LEAST the last 12, and he still doesn't know how to make a schedule. He has someone else do it, then he "tweaks" it to his liking. And he always waits until the last possible minute to put the schedule out. Normally, I wouldn't care, but I have 2 jobs, and my other job works around this schedule. He also has ZERO people skills. Which is really bad, since we're in an industry that requires people skills. He's an awful boss, never takes up for his employees, and always assumes the worst. He's just the worst. I can't wait to leave this job.

Panera is a good bribe, I do that during the fall as well because I am addicted to their Autumn Squash Soup. IT IS HEAVEN IN MY MOUTH. I hope the rest of your day yesterday went well enough, and good luck with the training.

I... am in my own personal hell at work. My boss is horrible and it took me a year to realize she is a bully and essentially abusive as all hell. We are actually in the process of filing complaints with HR about her now, and last Friday she got a letter of "serious concern" from the ethics and legal department. Of course, I am not supposed to know this. Tuesday I wound up having an intense panic attack at my desk and having to feign vomiting to abruptly leave that afternoon, and my therapist sent me to urgent care that night. Wednesday morning I saw my primary doctor and wound up being put on medical leave from work for at least 2 weeks. While I am happy to be trying to heal away from that stressor, it is unpaid so I am stressing tf out about finances. Which isn't helping. The sad thing is that I like my job enough (it is a career trajectory) but my boss completely wore me down so I cannot cope being there in her presence. :/

Well, it certainly cheered me to see my art in your signature! ^_^

And I had a boss just like yours, before the one I have now. She was a horrible bitch. Basically the worst excuse for a human being I've ever known. It's funny, because this boss now, she knows all about her, after wondering why all the employees were tiptoeing around her. She asked me what was up and I told her all about Laura. She calls herself the 'anti-Laura' now, which is pretty true.

Hehe, yes! Good arts! :D

Glad that you have an anti-Laura now! Was this at the same place?