Lemme start off saying...I do have dignosed sever depression. I would never try doing anything because i love my pets too much. I really dont wanna call the hotline...BUT...

"I hate my job" isnt even close to how I feel The money is okay, the benefits are decent. But i feel like im wasting my time here. I keeo asking myself whats the point.

I never wanted to be in this part of STEM lab job, and its not what my degree is in at all. Every day its the same repetitive task. I keep messing up on things because I hate it and zone out. (Sometimes my daydreams are dark thanks to my depression. )

I go home and cry everyday. I'm too mentally exhausted to spend hours a day searching for a job or studying.

I mean im trying to study for my GRE but it feels like its going nowhere. So I have the indeed app looking for jobs...but filling out an application while working a fulltime+overtime+life takes so long.

I have been but everything is rejection letters. People tell me to move to another place for some fresh jobs ..but i dpnt think i'm mentally stable enough to. I dont have a partner and i still live with the parents (in my mid 20s).

Any advise or encouraging thoughts would be most helpful....

Hi there! I know life can seem impossible at times but remember that your life and health is more important than anything else. If that means finding a new job, etc than I think you absolutely should. Finding a new job that you actually want to do will make you feel so much better in that aspect. Unfortunately in our world we have to work until were too old to do anything else. For that time being you might as well be doing something you enjoy rather than working at a job you hate. There are 24 hours in a day, maybe try taking one hour a day and working on job hunting! Or even fill out one application a day and go from there. I know linkedin is also a great way for people looking for employment. You really don't have to do a lot on there. I think you just sign up, put your resume on it and have employers find you. There are also websites you can check out that have job listings ready to go.

Set small goals for yourself and work towards them as best as you can :) I know life can be hard, so finding any way to make it easier is a win in my book. A job especially is something you want to be able to enjoy because it takes up so much of your time and life.

Thank you for the kind words. You don't know how much they mean to me.

I Havent considered linkedin as a job search website. I only used it as a business profile. I will definitely look into it.

I agree, i need to find a job that I enjoy and I know IN MY MIND that i wont be stuck here forever....but it still feels like i am. I'm moving forward and thats whats important.

I wish we didnt have to work so much. Maybe like 20-25 hours a week. I feel like all i ever do is work. Sleep. Work. Sleep. Then get caught up on life on the weekends.

no problem :) and I feel you there. 40 hours+ is so much working and to be honest I feel like its a waste of life. We go to school all those years to finally get out and have to work the rest of our lives. Fun being a human I guess? But with that, like I said doing something you like helps it at least makes the work day go by faster. But yea you for sure won't be there forever! The hardest thing is trying to continue to remind yourself that this is only a temporary job situation and that the future holds so many mysteries. You never know, a year from now you could be in your dream job!

if i could hug you right now, I would. That was just what i needed to hear.

I just need to keep pushing forward.

Waking up each morning only to dread going to work each day is no fun way of living. I agree, I highly suggest you continue to look into finding another job! I know it may seem impossible and those piling rejection letters are exhausting to read, but you WILL catch a break and someone will give you a chance! It took me 8 months after graduating college (and honestly I was looking off and on throughout my last year of school as well) before I finally landed a job. I applied for jobs that I both dreamed doing and could settle with, even if it wasn't exactly what I wanted to do, but those rejection letters were such a letdown. I totally remember crying my eyes out the last rejection letter/email I got prior to landing this job. The job market sucks so bad, but eventually a job will open up for you and things will go in your way!

Out of curiosity--is it possible to cut back on the hours for a little while? I'm not sure if that's something you could possibly do, or afford to do, but it may help you clear your mind and job hunt a little longer! I have a hunch that you may not be able to do that (and I feel you, that full-time life) but just a suggestion!

I recommend LinkedIn as well. I didn't use mine often, but I made sure to keep my profile and resume up-to-date with new experience, skills, jobs, etc. It's similar to Indeed, because you can literally just press a button and LinkedIn sends your resume to the employer for you! (I'm pretty sure it still works like that, if they have the option available. Worked fine the end of last year!)

Good luck! You can do this! :)

Thank you for the reply. This is really disheartening and its wonderful to hear some kind words. I got my job 4 months after graduating. I applied to everything I could and took anything i could get.

Thanks for the suggestion but i can't cut back on hours. Full-Time for life...or i lose my benefits. :( I'm salary, but they make me stay the entire 8 hours (or more) a day...even if there is no work. it drives me insane because i feel like i could be doing so much more. My coworker tells me 'well, youre getting paid to sit.' That doesn't matter to me, i feel like my brain is rotting. I don't mind working my ass off at a job, it makes time go by and keeps my mind busy. but.... I'd rather be hiking, or gaming, or reading than just sitting there. Speaking of reading, they got mad at me for reading when there was nothing to do. UGH. They won't let me go home when there isnt anything to do.... What the heck.

I'll start my search on linkedin this weekend!

First of all, -hugs- I'm sorry you're going through such turmoil; it sucks like hell to hate something that takes up so much of your life and is necessary, on top of that. I get it, I feel the same way about my job. There have been days I've come home at the end of a shift still in panic mode, absolutely hating my life and feeling trapped in an endless loop, so frustrated and upset that I don't even want my partner near me. It almost never feels worth it to go in. I love my managers and really enjoy my coworkers, but the rest of it...

I suppose I should clarify: I only work in a fast food place. I didn't go to college after high school for a few reasons, a couple of them being that I was very tired of school and I didn't know what I would like long enough to turn into a career. Another was that I noticed that it was becoming increasingly difficult for people to find work in the fields they went to school for unless it was a high-demand field, none of which I want to go into. So it seemed like it would be a waste of time and money I didn't have anyway. Don't get me wrong, I love to learn, but not at the prices they charge for it. Anyway, that of course limits things, and I ended up in mostly fast food. Now here I am in the present, lol. It isn't a glamorous job; actually is the opposite. I feel like I get looked down on because I'm in fast food and not something better by now (only late 20's, but still). We've been short-handed for a while, so those of us that are reliable get over-worked. You wouldn't think that it's all that difficult of a job, but I'm the only one that makes sandwiches for easily over 200 people in a shift, and since we're cheap, the orders tend to be large, and orders are expected to be done in about 3 minutes to be considered good, no matter their size. After a while, the beeping, the voices, the rudeness and laziness that I hear in them, the speed I have to maintain to get orders out on time and accurately, it gets to me. I'm not diagnosed with anything because I don't have insurance and can't afford to go to the doctor, but I'd bet anything I have some form of anxiety. Dealing with people too long leaves me incredibly stressed out and on edge, and I snap easily. I try really hard to keep it under control, but nothing I've tried helps except getting away, but that isn't always an option. I end up so tired that when I do have time to make art or go outside or spend time with friends, I don't want to.

There's a plan though. Some friends have land that they're building a house on, and we're invited to do the same, and plan on it. They're going to be sustainable and small and mostly buried; we won't have rent or a mortgage to pay, so life will be far cheaper and we won't have to work as hard or as long to make enough money to live on. But until that happens, it's this. Saving is hard, and if something comes up like vehicle maintenance, any saving we have done is gone.

Wow, I did not mean to write so much o.o Apologies, lol, but thank you also for reading. Mostly what I can offer is sympathy and understanding. I've been in places that didn't allow me to use down-time for anything personally constructive, but I had the option of leaving those with relative ease. I do hope you have better luck finding something you enjoy more. Even if there's a pay/benefit cut in it, I can tell you from experience that if you enjoy the work more, it's worth it. I once stayed at a place I hated for so long and got so bad, they told me to get checked at the local mental health place or get fired. Trust me, your happiness is far more valuable than the money and benefits coming from a good job. I'm not saying go into fast food, but don't discount something because it doesn't pay as well.

Thank you for all the kind words. Thank you for sharing your experiences, Its reassuring to know that I'm not the only one feeling like this. I totally understand how you are feeling, its hard to do anything after such a stressful days of work. Atleast your coworkers and boss is nice, things could always be worse thats what i tell myself. Luckily i like my boss too, coworkers are just alright. My depression makes me believe it that this doesn't happen to anyone else, i keep having to tell myself that i'm not the only one going through hell. I've talked to another coworker about it, and she said she had a burning hatred for the job as well....after a year she just accepted it.

I agree, i need to find somewhere that I will enjoy. I used to work retail at Target, that was a nightmare and i could never do that again. Thats why I went to school and got a B.S for a different job field. People treated me like I was below dirt at target (This gives me a lot of respect for people in jobs like that) and that was an all time low i never thought i could get to. I'm thankful i'm alive every day.

I've just bought a new car and luckily my note is low enough that i can pay it even with a minimum-wage part-time job... if i REALLY had to. I'd like to try and have some money set aside just in case though, enough to pay for my car for at least 6 months because the last thing i need is it repoed.

I keep telling myself one day i will find the perfect job, where i wont have to 'work a day' ever again. -sighes-

I want to find a job where I can sustain myself....work 20-30 hours. Hell, I'd even like to be my own boss and travel for a living. Only if i could find something that i could do to support myself, i'm not very artsy.

Things could be worse, but if we compare our troubles to those of others and not our own past, we'll almost always be left feeling like ours aren't important. There will always be someone that has it worse than we do, but we aren't them. That being said, I know very, very few people who enjoy their jobs, if they enjoy working period. It's kind of a thing I think. That's why we're planning on living as cheaply as we can, so the little bits were used to go a lot further. Things like growing our own food to cut down shopping costs, and living on land instead of paying for a house we'll never actually own (I hate the idea of things I've put so much time and money into just being taken from me because I had a couple of rough months and missed payments).

I dream of not having to work either. I'd love to get to a point where I can live off of some of the things I make (I plan on learning a lot of craft trades when I have the time and space) and sell, and never have to make food for some lazy jerk again. Unless that lazy jerk is my friend and I want to. But you don't have to be artsy to be your own boss, there are a good handful of jobs that could be done on the road/at home. I'm just not really sure what they are, though I know some involve computers and Internet access.

I definitely know what it's like to get up and feel like you do nothing all week except work, eat and sleep. I did that for a year and a half and while I didn't hate my job at first, I started really dreading it a few months before I quit. As I moved up in rank, my hours got longer, my tasks became more and more, and my pay was garbage. There was a huge sense of relief when I left, and I have a much happier job now where I work less hours for more pay, and it's something I really enjoy doing (most days, haha! It can't always be sunshine and rainbows unfortunately).

I sincerely hope that you have good luck finding something that you enjoy as well. And try to remember, a job is not forever -- not if you don't want it to be, and I'm sure something better will come along for you soon. Just keep putting things out there, and going for places -- even if you don't think you have a shot, you just never know! Along with LinkedIn, maybe ask around with friends or family if they know anywhere good that's hiring and if they'd be willing to put in a good word?

I saw your post title and thought, amen.

However, your life is not over! Your life is not your job and vice versa, if you are looking for a new one, it takes a lot of patience but time will be on your side. Do you mind me asking what your degree is in? One thing that can help is staying active when you are at home, even if you are exhausted every little bit helps. Just a short walk around nature, a creative or writing project, anything you can do on your own to add to your own sense of purpose in life that's not defined or paid for by others. Even a failure is better than nothing. Ask yourself what you would have liked to do as a child, because you have that freedom now.

From my personal experience : I have one of those impossible hard-to-hire for BFAs and also feel trapped sometimes in a job that doesn't require any degree to do. My coworkers probably think I am weird and socially challenged too. It sucks half the time, especially when it feels like people want to make things harder than they need to be. Last year, I worked a different minimum wage job, totally unrelated to my degree, watering plants all day every day. That one I miss, there were moments I felt that all I wanted in life, without the complexity of college and high wages and a set purpose, was to just be in the sun, giving plants life, hearing birds sing, and seeing happy shoppers who wanted nice gardens. It still gives me hope to this day, knowing if things don't work out, I can go back anytime and work until I have things better figured out. Having ideas for casual backup jobs might work wonders for your sense of security.