I'm not really necessarily expecting a response (but I mean, I'm not saying no, so, hit me) but it's recently become a very bothersome sensation inside me that the magic definitely died waaaay earlier than it should have. I'm 26, have a good job, choose to live with my mother (we both financially benefit from this), have a happy little home with her and my cat. There are problems, but certainly didn't trigger any of this feeling inside me, just natural life issues that must be dealt with. Stuff.

Anyways.

I feel like about 21/22 the magic died and I've never been able to pick it up again since. I don't have a lot of passions in life. And things I do involve myself in that you'd think I'd have to be passionate about (like my animal volunteering) I uh, could walk away really easy. I used to love anime. I used to run an anime business. And yet I haven't walked into an anime shop in 8 years at least (and if you're doing the math, you are correct, it is unusual, and I was ambitious then). I pass by one just about two times a week and I have never stepped foot inside.

There seems to have been a time lapse too where I was connected with the world and somehow drifted. Last year I got into Skyrim. This year I started playing Witcher. Fallout? Didn't know about it until like last year when I started roleplaying with a lovely friend (who if you see this, hello, I love you) that introduced me to it. Honestly I have no idea what most people are talking about these days but I really enjoy your tumblrs.

I don't have any fandoms anymore, not in the way I did when I was younger. It bothers me because there is nothing that I really absorb myself in. Besides cooking, I love food, but that's one thing. The only thing. My thrill for the... month? Whipped Peanut Butter. Saw it today at the grocery store. Bought it. Talked about it with the cashier, with my mother, with the cat. Yeah. Whipped Peanut Butter. There is no hashtag for this, pretty certain about that.

I'm just trying to figure out when it died, why it died, and how the hell I can get it back.

So, what you are basically saying, is the magic of being passionate about things in life has dwindled down to much of nothing?

This might not be a huge pick me up thing, but I know it happens. Its happened to me with certain things. Anime used to be a huge thing for me as well, now I have to force myself to watch it. I mean I LIKE it....just cant force myself to sit down and indulge.

Life gets rough in the mid 20's. Im 25 and life was totally a tad funner and easier at 20-21. Its hard for me to find a passion in my life at the moment.... maybe its early on life crisis? xD

I think and hope we eventually will get out of this rut. I cant answer why this happens, but I can relate so much.

I'm a bit younger than you, 22, but I already notice the same thing happening in my life. Plenty of reasons to be passionate every moment of the day to day, but no motivation. I've grown to see it as the lull that comes between the psychological rush of mid to late teens and the point in life where you start to find your calling and your more permanent identity.

People don't really figure out who they are until they get dropped into the adult community and spend some time there. And sometimes it takes a long time.

Just roll with the punches and keep your head up looking out for your real passion. It will come when it's time. And remember that I have no idea what I'm talking about, because none of us have ever done this perfectly.

Feel free to drop me a message if you need to vent. :)

I don't mean to be an alarmist, but lack of excitement or loss of interest in things that used to make you happy can be symptoms of depression. Same for generally going emotionally numb and finding it hard to fire up the passion you used to have. Depression doesn't always mean crushing sadness.

I'd personally look into that just to see. You might just be having some kind brain chemical shift in the passing years that can be easily corrected/supplemented with medication.

I think might be on to something. I have depression and share a lot of your feelings. Things to ask yourself, are you happy with your life the way it is now or do you want more/different. In my experience those numb feelings are cause by...something. For me i used to feel like that when i was feeling trapped and with no possibility of ''escaping'', so i just numbed out to stuff. Even if your life is fine overall, who knows. Humans are weird XD

I've felt the same exact way, honest to God. I kind of lost touch with everything and everyone in my life and I didn't care. Just recently, as in the last few weeks, I decided enough being a whiny bitch and I'm going to do something about it. So I found a couple of local classes that I'm going to take (meditation, chai kwong do) and I'm going to go with my gut and start being active with activism instead of just bitching on Facebook. It's an amazing feeling...I feel like I'm living again.