Im not going to go into detail about it. Before Christmas last year I basically had to move out of my house to live with my uncle for a while. He has a criminal record for sexual offense and I guess I should've seen this coming but i didn't really have a choice anyway. yesterday he did things to me and i don't know what to do, and i don't have any friends here so im not sure who i can talk to. I don't think i could tell anyone irl about this.

i just feel so bad and disgusting

You're not alone. I understand but what happened is absolutely not your fault. Is there a way for you to contact the police?

I'm going to second the comment on it not being your fault. I know it's probably almost impossible to believe right now, but it's something to keep in mind a remind yourself of when "It's all my fault" or "I should have known" are stuck on repeat in your head.

I'm really glad you're reaching out, and I'm offering my hand back to you. If you want/need to talk about it, at all, my smail is always open to you. And no I don't care if it's months from now randomly ok? Just reach out and keep reaching.

For now are you currently in a safe location? I really recommend the police, of course, but there are also shelters in some places for reasons just like this. Please look into it wherever you are if you are still in the situation that is dangerous.

I was sexually abused by a friend and it eventually ended with tears. I felt disgusting and I was scared. The police didn't help me saying that "I wanted it" and they couldn't do anything because I made up my diary and there was too great of an age difference (I was 22 at the time and he was 44) and it was "consensual". To this day, my mom still believes it was my fault because I kept going back (I was so scared).

What this all boils down to, is that, I truly understand how you're feeling. Please know that it is not your fault and that you brought nothing on to deserve this.

If you are able to, I would go to the police. I hope they're able to help you since he is a registered sex offender.

Makes a good point about the police probably being more receptive since he's on that particular list.

I don't know. I don't have cell data and my uncle won't let me leave the house. I mean, I don't want to have to get anywhere near him again. Tbh no one would care about what happened anyway.

Thanks though guys. I literally have no one else here.

Landline? Is he ever away from the house? Also found this: RAINN if you're in the USA. I believe some ways to reach for help are web-based. Yeah they've got a live chat thing if the phone is a no-go. They may have some more concrete ideas and ways to help. <3

Ahhh no other support systems (friends/family)??

I'm so sorry this happened to you. This isn't your fault at ALL. You need to find a way out, even if it means you have to get psychical and hit, kick, scratch, and bite your way out of the house. He has to sleep sometime, right? Sneak out. Take your shoes off and get out of the house. We care what happened. Once you get to the police, they can get you in touch with a social worker who can help you find a place to stay. Do not take no for an answer.

My SMail is always open if you need someone to talk to.

Not being able to leave the house, getting to a phone or no internet access is very common in some abuse cases. If you are unable to get help, I would suggest leaving a note some where asking for help and to contact police. You can leave it in a public womens' washroom or in someone's mailbox. Just a thought.

He works from home and only heads out for groceries occasionally...usually on weekends so I guess I could try then. I just don't think I have the guts for it..and my parents are divorced. I used to stay at my mom's but I'm too much of a burden financially.

Thanks for the link. It looks promising.

I'm sorry to hear that it happened to you as well. This just seemed so far away to me. I don't know the people in this neighbourhood but I'll try to if RAINN doesn't work out.

Thank you. I feel a lot less alone with you guys helping me out. I've considered sneaking out but I don't know what I'd do without him. I'd basically be homeless.

Please please let me know how it goes with RAINN. If not them, there's still direct to police and social workers. Even leaving a note in a public place if needed as Engrave suggested to get the ball rolling. Also suggesting making a mental list of the things you would absolutely need to take with you. You might have to pack fast no matter what path you take so I'd suggest to prioritize the things in your mind now ok? And as far as having the guts for running? That's what you got us for. To tell you you can do it. You're at a low and scary part in your life right now. Keep reaching out and holding on ok? You CAN do this and my inbox is open every step of the way <3

[EDIT] Wondering if you lovelies have something to add. <3

I'm so very sorry this has happened to you. I would definitely try the link Dot has provided. I know it's a scary time and everything seems like it's going to make it worse, but please please get out of that situation. Even if it's a shelter for the time being, it would be better than staying there, and they can help you get on your feet. If you need people to talk to, I'm always available. Anytime. I'll message you, if you don't mind?

is so on point, No matter what it takes you need to get out of that situation. I know things are scary and uncertain but remember that getting yourself out of there isn't to spin it more out of control but rather to take control of your situation. Even if you can just get to a neighbors and use their phone, or borrow a phone at a store when you excuse yourself to go to the bathroom..

Most importantly you need to know that it is NOT your fault and you do NOT deserve these things.

Let me ask you this.. Would you think anyone else in the world deserves this kind of treatment? I bet you would say, "No of course not!"

You are no exception to that question. You don't deserve any of this. But, You do deserve to be safe, happy, and living without fear. Everyone does.

Just take everything 1 step at a time. It will be okay.

EDIT : Dot, thank you so much for tagging the Dearlings in this, I know its a tough situation but I hope we're all able to band around Reiiha and give them the support they need. Also, thank you Dearlings that do take the time to post, you are each stellar beings.

Everyone has really great advice. It is super important for you to try to get out of the situation ASAP. Are there any local shelters or agencies for domestic abuse? Sometimes they have discrete ways of getting you help & getting you safe so you can contact the police. If you are searching things on a shared computer, you might want to make sure to clear your browser history or use a private browsing window so your uncle can't see what you're searching, just in case.

A lot of organizations and people exist out there that want to help, it's just a matter of finding the right one for you. And please, keep us updated!

I have been in that situation when I was four. Much younger than you, I never really talked about it till I was 6 and told a babysitters kid's who then told my dad. You need to find a way for help, internet is a great source. (Not sure if anyone mentioned this) There are most likely a website that is used as a hotline. Or if you feel comfortable with someone on a particular website, like subeta, you can give them your address and a explanation for what has happened. You don't want this to continue to happen. It is not your fault, it's your uncles. You are not disgusting, your Uncle is. I know it may be hard for you to realized this, it took me ten years and then some because I am still trying to get past it. Don't be afraid, be smart about how you execute your plans. I know it may be hard, but you should get it done ASAP.

You are beautiful. You did not bring this upon yourself. Your Uncle is sick and you need to get as far away as possible. Many people care, if you want to talk about it, I am a safe space. I know some of what you are going through. I will listen if you just want that or I could talk with you, either or, your decision.

If you are scared of being homeless, don't be. You can find somewhere to live. Do not rely on that man, Do not, Do NOT, DO NOT. I am sure people would help you, not everyone is cold, sweetheart.

You can handle this, you were strong enough to reach out for help. You are strong enough to get out of this situation. It may be hard, but you got a lot of people who can give you support.

(Sorry if this is blunt or anything, I just want to help <3 )

Thank you so much, everyone. I don't know how to express how much your words mean to me. Waking up to this almost made me cry. I swear I'm going to give this a shot. I won't be online very much the next few days but if I do get out and I really really hope so I'll let you guys know.

I'm extremely grateful for everyone's support <3

You are always welcome <3 I'm so so happy to hear that you're going to give it a shot!!! Thanks for warning us about the upcoming silence (I would have worried) Just remember it' not if you get out. It's when you get out. You can do this. Let us know how it goes ^-^ I'll be rooting for you <3

You've got this, dear! We believe in you and we're here for you <3

i've never been in a similar situation so i'm afraid i can't offer advice, just wanted to say that if you need to talk and let your emotions out, or want to talk about something entirely different, my inbox is open to you. i wish you all the luck and strength in the steps you're about to take. you can do this ❤️

You got this and you're welcome.