So...I haven't been on for a while and I probably wont for a while still. On the morning of October 5th, I woke up to find my mothers body...We had camped out in her living room, because she wanted to watch her favorite horror movies and murder mysteries. I fell asleep around 5am and woke up at 10 am and she was gone...

I quickly took my two year old to his room and put on a cartoon and I was on the phone with 911...They came and got her, after trying to bring her back for two hours...they declared the cause of death as congestive heart failure.

My mom has been in a battle with illness and addiction since I was 14 years old. She always had heart problems and recently she was diagnosed with cancer...and she always had a pill problem.

My mother was 53 and I am 25...we share a birthday and it is November 7th. I always did what I could to do right by my mom.

I laid my mom to rest on October 9th and I am still having a hard time dealing...I haven't really had time to mourn, she didn't have life insurance nor did she have a will. So now it a fight to keep our family home from the bank...It is all just really hard, stressful and I feel like I am living in a nightmare....I don't know what to do now.

I'm so sorry. I lost my mom almost 2 years ago (November 2nd will be 2 years) and honestly it never really has gotten easier. She was also 53 when she passed.

I'm here if you need to talk. -hugs-

wow, i'm so sorry. just always keep her in your mind and spirit, and she'll always be with you. i haven't lost a loved one before, so i can only imagine the pain you are in. just always know that you are loved and cared for. if you ever wanna talk, i'm here as well.

❤

I am so very sorry for your loss! I know how incredibly difficult it can be to have a complicated relationship with someone battling addiction. Losing her so young makes it much tougher. There just aren't enough words for something like this, so hug. Hang in there. I know you're dealing with a lot right now, but that kiddo of yours is worth the battle.

Thank you, I don't think I will ever truly move on from it.

It feels like your heart breaks and you are being cut up inside by the pieces. I am thankful for your kindness though, thank you very very much.

Honestly, my son Killian is the only thing that puts a smile on my face these days. So I have stepped up my mommy game.

Thank you every one for the kind words. I just wish I knew how to make the pain stop long enough to function like a normal human being. I am not a lethargic person and lately I have no energy for anything.

My little guy is all the gets me through the day sometimes. Just gives yours lots of extra snuggles and love, and find as much comfort and joy as you can in his smile. ❤

I am so sorry. That has to be so hard.

I am SO very sorry. Similar story to mine. My mom had some addictions herself... pills and alcohol. I woke up from a nap last year in July from my sister calling me telling me my mom died in her sleep. When they got her body out of the room it looked like she was just peacefully sleeping.

SO very hard to think about and remember. I miss her every day.

I know this is hard. It doesnt get easier(not gonna lie) time just numbs you a little. I am here if you would ever like to talk. So sorry love.