Hey guys, it's been awhile since I've been on due to personal reasons just like everyone else.

Lately, I've been feeling really... sad. Sad and very hopeless, and I really don't know why. I'm on antidepressants/anxiety meds, and usually they work, but I'm not sure if I wanna see my doctor or not because I don't feel like being experimented on with different drugs that I will really make me want to kill myself, lol.

What's been really bugging me lately is school. I'm a 1 1/2 year in community college student, that loved it my first semester. I don't know if it was because it was less classes, or easier ones, but I just want to give up completely. The only really thing that's making me not do it is my family. They would be so disappointed if I dropped my classes.

Currently, I'm not working so I'm stressed out about being broke. I just feel so hopeless like nothing is going to go right anymore, and it sucks feeling this way. I try to do my homework and bring my grades up, but again hopelessness won't let you finish that. I get so overwhelmed when I realize how far behind I am and that's what makes it worse because it feels impossible.

I know this is probably very whiny, and I'm sorry. I just need someone to talk too, maybe some motivation.

Hey--just want to say that it's doable. College is hard, but you can do it. (trying to manage it and a job at the same time is tough, but also manageable.) What helps me a lot when I'm feeling helpless and lost and facing impossible-seeming tasks is breaking it down into small pieces, taking things one step at a time. You've got homework to do? Write a list of everything down, and start with one thing. Ignore the rest of the list until you're done with it. Even if it's just one chapter of a five-chapter reading. One thing. When you're finished with that, cross it out, pick something else. If you need to, take breaks by doing something else productive: Looking for a job you'd like, or working on applications, cleaning your room (if it needs it), maybe asking your family for a bit of financial help if you're able to? And then go back to your list. One step at a time. Everything is much easier that way. And most importantly, you can do it. Don't give up.

Thank you, seriously. I don't know, but that did feel very motivational. I try to do that all the time, but I'll look how long that list is, and just stop. Also, I doubt how important the list is anyways, because I just feel like I don't care anymore.. I get in these moods every once in awhile, but this has been the longest.

Here's a secret--the list only looks so long because it's made of lots of tiny pieces. Once you get started, it'll get much shorter very quickly. As for not caring, start with "It needs to get done." For me at least, when I'm working on something, getting started helps me care about the thing itself, at the very least in terms of "well I'm in the middle now so I should finish it."

I'll have to try that, thank you.

I think another reason I'm getting this way is because my boyfriend does the something... We've been together a little over 3 years now, and this is his first semester back from school in about 5 or 6 years, so he needs to readjust to the whole atmosphere again. He really doesn't care about anything, but that's a whole different story and problem...