i really wanted to be a firemedic, and i wasn't 100% dedicated to the idea but it's gotten me excited for a little while now because i don't have any concrete ideas for my future and idk, it really seemed like something i wanted to do. well, i guess you can't be that, or a paramedic, emt, nurse or any of those things if you've spent time in a mental hospital. it hurts. :(

As far as I know, that isn't true for every state.

thanks you two, i'll look more into it then!

And if it turns out that it is a no-go, just think of this as another stepping stone pushing you on to find what your real dream is. You might think about a life coach - just someone to discuss what your options are. Think of it kind of like a guidance counselor for adults. Whatever happens though, don't let your past hold you back. You do you and be awesome at it!

oh goodness you are so sweet <3 yes i definitely need to look into someone who can help me decide how to build my future. and you're totally right. if this is the end of that road, it was the wrong road for me. i really appreciate your words.