I think my depression is coming back. My friend group that I've had for about two years is starting to split up, and it's just hard maintaining relations with anyone. I've been trying to be the best I can be but it's making me feel manic. I'm just alone a lot these days. I really want to join a new club at my school (I'm in uni) but whenever the time comes to go I feel so anxious and scared I never make it u_u. I think I'm just going a bit crazy lately because of how upset I feel about life and everything and I've just been ignoring it.

Any advice on better dealing with it? I'm just lost right now :( I've dealt with depression before but it was always situational (bc of my family) and now it just seems like it's me and I'm disappointed in myself. I'm just mad that I got out of all that shit when I was younger and now I'm free of it and I'm still a lil limp noodle lol

I've been here for years though and I feel very comfortable on here that's why I'm posting about it. I just think some of you may be able to help me with some advice ^^

I would honestly just focus on your studies and get through college to be honest. I haven't really had a friend group since high school but the way people are still overdramatic that are near my age (or older) makes me stray away from those sorts of relationships. I've just learned to do me and make sure I make happiness for myself rather than rely on others to make me feel happy or complete. Took me a long time (had really bad problems through sophomore year of high school since now but I've came to terms with it.) Now I am truly happy being with myself. I don't know how you are though but I'm an introvert and getting into crowds literally drains my energy so I might not be the best person to give you advice! I tried though. ^^;

Your advice does help, though :) I'm an introvert as well. It is true that I should just focus on my studies, that's a good point. I guess I've been distracted by everyone. I'll definitely focus on making happiness for myself, that's a really good point as well ^^.

It's just that over the past two years I've become so attached to everyone in the group that I have seem to forgotten how to make myself happy. I'll definitely work on it, thank you so much for your advice <3