SO. I originally made this topic about my dog, whom I as very worried about.. He's better now, we have to tke him to the vet tomorrow again (weekly) so we'll hope he will be better soon~! THANKS FOR YOU HELP!

I KNOW I should only ping you for art and stuff like that, I DO NOT WANT TO BOTHER YOU. So... If I did, I'm really sorry, will not ping you in this kind of stuff again, I hope, is just that I'm.................... I'm crying atm, and i just want friends and someone to talk to. So sorry in advance...

But...... Now it's me the one who needs help? Like... I have 4 friends, only for in real life, I rarely speak with someone else, I don't know pretty much anyone in this site. I barely speak with people if it's not about something like, selling stuff....... Or art...

I'm scared, I'm currently trying to apply to an art school, RISD, in Rhode island... But.... I don't kno if I can do it, I just don't know. I hear voices in my head all time, everytime I talk about them they say I'm lying, they don't exist and I'm confused. I don't ant to hear them. I hurt myself, I also have trichotillomania, wich makes me feel like a freak......

But, the most serious things I have... I can't feel pleassure, at all. I DO feel sexual attraction but... Nothing else... Lie, you can touch me? But I won't feel pleassure at all and it ruined a relationship...

And well!!! Most awesome hing is. I have 4, FOUR TUMORS, AND MY MOM SEEMS NOT TO CARE/?! She knows I have them, doctors know I have them (I thought I only have one, they are located in my breasts, so I can feel them) but... It turned out I had 2 on each side. I already got 2 surgeries and 6 tumors removed, one with big probabilities of being cancer... And...................... I'm scared, guys, I mean, it all started when I was 14, I as a child, and I still am? I'm almost 19 now, But I still feel as a kid. I practially had no friends in my childhood, so I never stopped being "childish" to get attention, I just want friends, I don't want to be alone again.

I want a boyfriend or a gilrfriend, yeah, that'd be nice, have someone to cuddle, someone I can tell all my problems, my weaknesses, my thoughs, someone I can talk about the voices in my head... Someone ho will trust me and believe me, because my ex boyfiend coudln't (even though he ALSO had depression, anxiety, self harm stuff and heared stuff on his head, too)

I'M DONE OKAY? I'm so done. Somedays I wish I had friends, soe days I just wish I asn't alone, my only friend, Lucas, is always there for me, he calls me cute, he says I'm awesome, and he lets me call him at 1am. But it's not fair, It really it's not...

Sorry for all that................ I just.... I just want someone to talk to, because my "best friend', who is already forgetting about me, says she doesn't wants to keep hearing my problems, because they make her feel sad... And I just don't know what to think about her anymore.

I'm so sorry.

He may have irritated skin. I used some special lotion on my pug skin with oat to calm his itchy skin. We also used coconut oil. I wouldn't recommend coconut oil on open wounds. Can you find another vet?

I would definitely try a different food -- usually dogs who have food allergies present with being really itchy (and it can sometimes be quite extreme with the red flare-ups and spots). And sadly, the only way to really tell which thing is the culprit is trial and error. I would try maybe a chicken, or fish-related food and see if that helps make him not as itchy.

I can find another vet... But I'm a bit scared, because the other vets are a bit far, I went to this one wlking with Shiro, but everytime he's on a car, he throws up.. :c I will try it! I can't remember the time I changed his food... (but it might be around when the wounds started to appear) It might be that, never thought of it, thank you!

I used to work in a grooming salon and a lot of issues with a dog's skin/coat were food related. I'd definitely get him on grain free or a limited ingredient diet food and see if that helps.

Please remember if you're going to try him on a different diet or a novel protein that it often takes time to show results. The other problem is it means you have to monitor his snack intake too! It does you absolutely no good to switch his main food and still give him the same cookies/treats. I would recommend trying a different vet instead though. They can walk you through things like that or other have other possibilities that it may be. They may also prescribe a different medication to try. Doggy allergies are a lot like human allergies in that respect - just because one medication helped one person, doesn't mean it'll help another. (My boss uses an allergy med that doesnt help me worth a fig,)

Okay! Will take that in mind, thanks so much! I'm currently bathing him with this medicated shampoo, but yes, it might take some time to take effect... Thanks!

I wish I can give you a hug right now. :c I know we've never spoken about things not related to art in the past, ever since I found out that you had trich, I've been rooting for you and hoping things would get better soon.

What resonates so much with me is that feeling of not having friends (I am around many supportive people right now, thankfully, but sometimes I do feel like a helpless kid - I'm horribly inept with social mores in real life and worry too much about how people perceive me. And sometimes I do some horrible things that people with a normal social life would not.) For most of my life, I couldn't even say my peers appreciated me genuinely.

Right now, I'm that kind of person a lot of people are friendly with, but I don't really have a close friend/best friend. It used to bother me, but aloneness also has its perks. What matters more is the quality of friendship you have with your few friends, rather than have many friends but no connection deep enough to make you comfortable to talk to each other outside of common interests.

This shouldn't be about me, but you. Cherish that friend you have.

I do not know your full medical history (and will not ask you to reveal it,) but perhaps there may have been some nerves affected depending on where the tumours were - that might be why you can't feel pleasure. Or even something like anorgasmia. I can understand why it can be problematic, I cannot say you are asexual, but that the issue might be biological (went through that too, but now I have no sex drive, no sexual attractions, and even have repulsion towards sex.)

It's a bit hard for people who have no sexual issues to understand either a biologic or gender reason for difficulties with pleasure, even if they read about it. What would be best is to find someone with the same situation, as that's the person who can understand you better. :(

This probably doesn't help, but I hope the mere action of typing your post in the forums helped you feel a bit better. :')

Whoah thank you so much, really Q_Q I'm much better now, thanks! It rally helped to read at what you just said. I always found it hard to make friends, and now I'm going to mov to USA soon, I'll looose my peruvian friends... And it's just.. I don't know how people in USA will accept me... :,)

Is it okay if I talk to you more often? Also, I'm sorry you have to get throught this, too.

I'm glad to know that. ;u; One way friendships can fade is from a lack of contact. If you are able to contact them through social media or phone apps, you can keep the flow of communication alive. In the short stay I had in the US, people are generally nice. I'm not sure how it goes for academic settings (you were applying for CalArts before, I think,) but hopefully you'll find some friends there. :D

You're free to talk to me whenever! <3 I am just very slow with replying because my classes and medical missions keep me busy most days. :')

I would honestly look on ok cupid. I found my boyfriend of 2 years there. If your hearing voices in your head, I do advise you to take that up with a psychologist and get on a method that will help you will all the anxiety that you hold. I only have my boyfriends family and my mom and dad as my friends. I'm 21 and I've always been that way. I know how it is to feel alone. Before you get a boyfriend, make sure you go to a psychologist. Maybe get your health back on track so you can feel like yourself so you can shine when you meet that special someone. I was in the same period when you were 19, so if you ever need to talk more feel free to leave me a comment. You should not put the burden on someone else, because nobody will be able to sort it out with a professional. I hope you get to feeling better, sweetie!