My BF's mom has Alzheimer. He told me I am to blame, it is my fault, I probably told her something, some stupid dream I had, or something that triggered this illness upon her. That's one. Our 15 years dog passed away 1.6 years ago, because of me, I probably fed him something I shouldn't have, hence he dead. Because of me. That's two. Our friends got a divorce because of me, I must have said, do, or interfere somehow, because this is what I do, butt my nose where it shouldn't be. That's three. Can someone tell me WTF am I waiting for to dump him? Or am I really this bad? And if I am, why the hell is he still with me?! I have been pushed, shoved and pulled, into every wall in the house, got myself a good purple bruise on half my face when he shoved me in the cant of the door...I've been humiliated, made a monkey, stupid, idiot, f'n moron, blue, black and purple, why am I so stupid to still be with him?! We have not made love at all in the last 6 years. His bimbo came at MY door to ask for more money. Yet I am the one looking for trouble, causing it, looking for fights, causing them. He said I will be nothing without him, pure zero. Got NO money of my own, 'cos all I had went to him. WTF am I doing and most important, WTF am I gonna do?! Guys...this is not a drunken drama queen talking. I am sober, clear and...in a runt. What I just wrote it's the scratch of a surface...Uber hard to talk about, even harder to read it, in my face, even if I know it. WTF am I supposed to do?

You cannot cause Alzheimers, kill a pet or make someone divorce. Take a deep breath

that sounds .. very abusive and you should get away from him?

First off, Alzheimers is a disease that people get and it generally runs in families. I know because my grandmother, mother and brother had it. Second your dog was 15 years old, which is old for a dog. And third, your friends had relationship problems, probably some you and your BF didn't know about, it's their issue not yours. You need to get out of the relationship somehow, what he is doing is abuse and no one should be allowed to do that to you. If you have a job start saving a little bit of money to leave, if not I would try to find some type of shelter to stay in. It would be preferable to what your situation is now.

Thank you for advice, guys, I have a lot to do, but DO! Not wait, you're right. Thank you for helping ❤

You said it yourself, you know the situation and you need to get out of it. You don't deserve any of that mistreatment. I wish you luck!

You need to get out of there NOW! and never look back. No if and or buts.

No one deserves that kind of shit. You're not to blame for these things, and he does not deserve any pity. I know how hard it is to leave an abusive partner, but you know what you have to do. Please don't let yourself stay any longer.

I hope you have managed to get away from that awful situation :(

I'm not sure what part of the world you are from but there are (free) help lines that you can call. There are shelters from people looking to escape abusive relationships.

I don't know you, but I know that you don't deserve to be spoken to like that, you don't deserve to be pushed around...because no one deserves that. I hope that you're in a better place. If you need someone to talk to feel free to private message me.

Thanks a lot guys, I'm on a better road now, thank you for listening and helping ❤

Thank you, I'll keep that in mind 💋

I'm glad to hear it :) Good luck! <3