My bearded dragon, Charmaine died yesterday. I have had her for one year and she's already gone. I got a job delivering phone books, carrying pounds of them at a time in the sweltering heat last year, just to make enough money specifically to get her. I worked hard and in the end, it feels like none of that mattered. She suddenly wouldn't eat anymore. I had to force feed her for a week and a half because she wouldn't eat, while waiting for her medication to come in the mail which has still never arrived. And then yesterday when I tried to feed her, she didn't want anything to do with it. Then she got all dark and gloomy and stayed at the bottom of her tank. I had her in my bed for a while, thinking she would be ok until I could get her to a vet. I was on skype with my friends and they listened to me cry when she started gasping for air, failing to breathe. It was like she was having a heart attack. One of my friends managed to find an emergency vet clinic. I drove there as fast as I could but it was too late. I literally watched her have a seizure in my hands before passing her off to the vet. By then it was too late and there was nothing they could do. Her heart had failed and she stopped breathing. I watched her have her last fighting breath. And now I'm a total mess. I've been crying since yesterday. I know she's dead, but... I literally just had her in my hands. And I keep asking myself why she isn't here anymore...

I'm very very sorry about Charmaine. I'm sure she had a lot of love, fun and a wonderful time as your companion. Do you know what caused her passing :c ?

Not a single clue. I asked the vet if he could diagnose anything, but he said that she seemed perfectly healthy when I brought her in. No worms no anything. He'd tried supplying her oxygen, but her heart ceased. He said it could have been due to renal failure because she'd stopped eating. It just makes me feel like if maybe I had forced her to eat a little more... she'd still be here.

Don't blame yourself. You did everything you could do for your companion and you tried your best to make sure she didn't suffer.

Sometimes, there are things that are out of our control. I'm not the best company right now since I've had to part ways with my dog today, but I hope you'll heal. I'm sure you were a wonderful owner and a friend to her. @ Wolfism

Thank you. Just hearing that makes me feel better. And I'm so sorry about your dog. I definitely feel you. hugs <3

I'm very sorry for your loss. Losing a beloved pet sucks. I lost my dog just over a month ago and I still expect to see her early in the morning. Rest in Peace Charmaine

It's always hard loosing a pet, no matter how big or small they are. I've had (in total of 8 hamsters since I've been in my apartment) and two of them (separate years) were held in my hand while they were dying. I watched them gasp for breath, then cease living. It's really hard and I cried for days.

Remember to remind yourself that Charmaine had a really good life with you and that she was loved and will still be loved <3

I hope you found this helpful.

I'm sorry about Charmaine. Rest in peace baby.

P.S. This was a hard post to make. I feel like crying :c

gives you a hug Losing a pet is always hard, and its hard to let them go. I just buried Charmaine a day ago, and for some reason I've felt better since then. I guess its because I know I've done my part to help her and she's resting peacefully now. I'm sorry about your hamsters though. hugs again <3

Very sorry about your dog. I had a dog, too. She was a pomeranian and the best fluffball ever. I still have dreams about her to this day. So I know how hard that can be. :c

Hugs for and everyone here.

I some-what recently lost my two dogs within one year. One was an elderly Chihuahua that we were expecting because she had been on medication for some time and given a life estimation by the vet. The other... not so expected. He was pretty young, but an XL breed so he just didn't get delt good cards despite what we tried. I miss them both so much. :C

Please don't feel guilty, there wasn't anything you could have done. You did your best and were a great pet owner!