So..

1 is abuout my relationships, 2, about healt and other issues

I broke up with my super. jelous, marihuana addict boyfriend 7 months ago. A few months after that, I started dating with this amazing guy who was really swet to me but... It seems he couldn't handle my anxiety attacks, depression, trichotillomany and my obsession with... Well, this is super, super embarrasing so I'l only tell the ones who are willing to hear a horrible mania I have... Please, don't mail if you are only curious? I really need advice about this, because it's taking over my life.

Well... He couldn't handle that, so he said maybe we should date again in some months, or even next year. Then he said I was obssesing over the realtionship we had, and stoped talking to me for.. 4 months? 3? Something like that. I had many anxiety attacs after that. I started cutting myself again and my dad started beating my so hard I had a huge bruise in my leg I couldn't cover. Mirko, the guy in question, seemed not to care a lot... My mom was the same. I told her "my dad beat me, take me home" (i as at his home for that time) and she said I needed discipline... REALLY? Like, I had a huge bruise on my leg, my lips were swolen because he covered my mouth with so much force I had a cut on them. And she said I just needed "discipline?" ..sigh

He just started talking to my again, I still like him but I'm not sure if that is a good thing. He told me once I'm 19 (I'm 18 now) we could start thinking about dating again, because he stills likes me a little but... I'm unsure about what to do, really. Those months were so horrible for me because we've know for 5 or more years, and he was my best friend.

Really, what should I do? 2) So... When I was 14, I was diagnosed with two tumors (not cancer, hopefully) but one with a 50% chance of being cancer. It had 6cm diameter and 1.5cm the second one... I had a surgery, and then another one, removing 4 this time... (in my breasts, one in one side, the other in the other one). I have now tumors on both, not so big (4 in total) I'm very worried because I don't really want more surgeries... I'm scared, I really am. If one of those is cancerous, I don't really know what I could do....

And.. I have another thing but, again, I'd preffer to talk about this with someone in private, because it's kind of personal, would be a bit embarrasing for everyone to see it...

ell.... THat's all.

All of this adds up to my anxiety, depression, an manias... Its getting worse, my mom thought a dog would be a nice idea to calm me down a bit, and it worked but it's not enough.