Wow, okay. It's March.

Let me first apologize for this wall of text.

I'm so sorry for completely disappearing. Life took an unexpected turn near the end of last year, and I'm still working through a lot. Subeta lost all joy for whatever reason. And it seemed like RL was just getting worse (although that had nothing to do with here). So I had to step back. And when I say step back, I really mean it. Those of whom I was close with probably know the best how I have retreated from absolutely everything. And honestly, it's not much better yet.

But, I'm not here to complain.

I'm here to tell you all how much I love you. How absolutely incredible each and everyone of you are. If it weren't for you, I'd probably just let my account rot and never come back.

I'm not ready to jump back into Subeta, but I missed a lot these last few months and I need to make up for it.

If you're upset with me, I 100% understand. I left things hanging when I disappeared, and that was unfair of me. I can't ever fully make up for it. But, I can try to make it a little better. If I left you waiting on me for something, please message me and bring it to my attention and I will do whatever I can to try to rectify the situation.

As far as any CW business, I'm not sure what to do about this. The laptop that replaced my desktop also went belly up on me. I lost all my files once again. I'm not able to recover anything off my drives at the moment and have no idea as to when I will be able to.

I'm really not able to talk about my situation, so I'm sorry if this post seems weird. I am alright & safe.

Finally, I want to send so much love to everyone who put presents under my Lumi tree even though I was an ass and wasn't on-site at all during that time. I literally just opened my tree today (wow, I'm glad it doesn't expire) and was blown away. Please expect to be gift bombed in the coming days. This is my first priority, because WOW you guys are so incredible.

@ Holly @ Makani @ Malfoy @ Cathii @ Sonatine @ Ale @ Wicker @ exo @ Varsna @ Blazhy @ Luthien @ Piplup

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I'd been wondering where you have been! hugs I can totally relate (was on hiatus oct-jan due to depression) and I hope things look up for you soon, hun. No weirdness at all, I"m really glad to hear from you. hugs ❤

Edit: Poison_Envy btw. XD Changed my name a while back.

Welcome back, so sorry that you're having a rough time. Much love to you!

hugs Hi sweetie! Thank you! I hope you're feeling better as well! Depression definitely played a big part in mine, although I'm alright now c: Life just gets rough on us sometimes! It's looking up, just not out of it yet haha. Thank you!!

Oooh, I like the UN change haha! I had to check who you were for a moment there :P

Thank you very much, I appreciate it! c:

I am getting there. Much better than last year, but it's IDK like simmering there. XD I'm okay. :) I'm really glad you are alright now! Yeah, life can def be a bitch sometimes! Gotta just look that bitch in the eye and be like PFFT I gonna rock you. hehe! Anytime you want to chat I'm always on skype. When you're up to more "people'ing" feel free to smail me and I'll get chu my info, hun. HUGS

haha thank you! I thought it was high time to get something more in line with my personality. XD

aw i'm glad to see you around again! i hope things get better for you soon <3

-hugs- welcome backglad your okay was a little worried. If you ever need someone to talk to I am around hunny. -huggles again- Also since you missed the zombie thing I still have hearts for the shop if you want some stuff from there to catch you up some okay <3?

You should never feel like you need to apologize for doing what you have to do to keep yourself safe ❤️ My dad suffers from severe depression and an anxiety disorder and sometimes it gets really awful. I hope that things take a turn for the better soon :*

heya miss! I was wondering where you'd went also ;o I hope you are feeling better, and real life will always always come first. Don't ever think otherwise because no matter what happens over the Internet, real life is more important x3

(ps if you are missing cw files, I most likely still have everything on dropbox so just let me know! n_n)

Glad to hear from you ❤️

omg late reply but I'm glad you're feeling well enough to even pop up here for an update, I was wondering where you'd went! That said, take your time to heal and don't feel obligated to jump back in before you're ready, rl is infinitely more important and I'm sure everyone here understands that.

So sorry to hear the replacement computer crapped out on you too, that sucks mega balls, although like Cathii I still have the files on my computer and I can beam them over whenever you want c:

awwwwWW love u i hope that everything is ok <3 <3 im glad you had lots of gifts to come back to yo!! <3

I know how you feel! As long as we can all push through <3 Haha, thank you! Oh god, right? Life's definitely a bitch, but I'm pushing through! Thank you! I really appreciate it, and definitely will! c:

Haha, well I love the change! c:

Thank you! c:

hugs Aww, thank you sweetie, I really appreciate it! c: Oh darn, of course I missed my favorite event ;.; That's so sweet of you, thank you! I'll have to go pop into the shop and see if there's anything I want ^^

Thank you hun, I really appreciate you saying that. I'm in a pretty good place mentally at this point, but the rest of the universe needs to fall into place now ;)

Gah, thank you thankyouthankyou???? I am feeling better, yes! Things are gonna be a-okay haha, I just need to be patient! Yesyes, it was definitely needed time away from everything. c:

Oh god yes! Anything you have haha. I have literally no files left, I need to figure out all of what I'm missing haha :P Thank you so much!

Thank you sweetie! I'm hoping to start getting back into Subeta a little, I definitely miss everyone!

Computers love me, it's wonderful XD Yess please! I definitely need the top/shorts you did! Spring time, perfect time to submit it! :D Thank youu!

It's okayyy!! I'm okayy!! Just liife man, just liife ;.; Thank you lovely! <3 I miss yer face. ;)

I'm glad you're in a good place at least ❤️

hey i totally get it december was not a great month for me either. Glad your back. need any help let me know ^^