I don't know if I'm looking for advice or just want to rant, but I need to put this all down somewhere. It's a whole big shitstorm, so I'll try to sum it up at the end.

It all started about a month ago when our new executive director (we'll call her ED) was finally hired. First day she's here, she starts making changes. She comes across right away as a hardass and no one likes her. She takes an immediate dislike to a coworker of mine and my boss, both of whom I consider friends. She tells the one girl that she needs to think about wearing makeup causing her to cry and starts telling me about how she dislikes how my boss does things and doesn't like her as a person either. A couple of weeks in, she starts firing people. The director of food services was first to go - she had no reason to fire him, he was awesome. Then a few more supervisors and other staff were let go, none of whom I could see the reason for whatsoever other than the fact that she didn't like them. For some reason during this time though, she took a liking to me. God knows why. I wish she hadn't. I feel like it's distancing me from coworkers I thought were friends before.

So fast forward to this past week, around her one-month anniversary. She starts dropping hints that she thinks I could do better than the position I have, that I should think about moving up in the company, that I have a degree and I should do something with it, etc. The same time she's saying all this, I learn another coworker, the one who trained me actually and who is a good friend, wants to leave the department she's in and come back to my department. This is great, except where are the hours going to come from when no one's leaving the department? I can't afford to lose any hours. I'm barely making it as it is. So I go to talk to ED just to kind of feel her out on what's going to happen and she straight out tells me that I don't have to worry about my hours, that nothing's being cut, and she gives me this sly little smile. A little later on, maybe a day or two later, she calls me after she left for the day and tells me she has an opportunity for me. She asks me what kind of degree I have (Bachelor of Art in Graphic Design), asks me if I want more hours (not really, what I have works well with the other things I do, volunteering, etc.), asks how I feel about moving up in the company (Sure? It depends.) and she basically pussyfoots around dropping hints here and there that all boil down rather obviously to me taking my boss's position and my boss being fired.

She tells me straight out that I can't say no, that she'll train me, that I can't doubt myself, that me not doing this will reflect badly on her because she's sticking her neck out for me with corporate, and that I basically won't have a position here unless I take this job. She didn't say that last one out loud, but it was definitely implied and it explains where the hours are coming from for the girl who's coming back to this department. So basically I can't fail at this or I won't have a job. I won't have my current job to fall back on. If I fail at this, she'll hate me and probably fire me because she's 'sticking her neck out for me'.

This new job entails so many things that I have no fucking clue how to do. It's a managerial role which I have never wanted. I will be responsible for the schedules of about 50 people, their discipline, paychecks for the whole place, bills for the whole place, ordering supplies for every department besides the kitchen, taking care of resident/family complaints, and God-knows-what-else. I should probably state at this point that I have absofuckinglutely no experience in anything even remotely like this. I've only ever had two real jobs - this one where I just answer phones, greet visitors, help residents with random things, and make random signs for the building, and my job at the paper as a photo editor, where I just toned pictures in photoshop. I've never been 'over' anyone, never been responsible for anything like this. But I have absolutely no choice in the matter because if I don't do this, that's it, no more job at all because if this doesn't work out, my old position will already be taken. I mean, I'm willing to try this, try anything really, but I need the assurance of a safety net if I fail and I won't have that here. It's utterly terrifying and I basically haven't slept for the past week.

tl;dr: Being forced out of my current job into a position I have no experience in and don't want.