After going through damage, things can never be the 'same' or how they once were, rather it might be a better option to move forward in the best way possible. Maybe try telling him how you feel about the situation? Communication is key :). No relationship is meant to be perfect,and it takes both sides to keep fighting for it. I hope this was at least a little helpful, I hope the best for you.

I completely understand this situation myself. Only difference is I'm not with the guy anymore cause he left me and I didn't go back to my ex after tho I spoke to him and he wanted me back but no I decided a different path. And I know it's because we never communicated to each other about our feelings at all and he couldn't handle my emotions heh. Anyways like Saerri says communicate with your boyfriend it's key to any relationship because if you don't it's just gonna not end well sadly :/

Thank you for your advice. I just hope we're not hanging on to nothing.

I'm just trying to decide if it's worth the fuss. I think we're both pretty tired of fighting to make it work when things should flow naturally.

Maybe sit down and talk calmly if you both have bigger tones to start an argument then it's not worth it in my own opinion. Fighting is like normal but it's not normal if it's all the time :/

I honestly don't think you should be with either of these men.

Your current boyfriend doesn't take your feelings into consideration enough - you had a hospitalizing panic attack?? And he didn't think that merited more open communication? That is a problem and a huge red flag. His attitude toward you as you described it doesn't sound like someone that would make a great partner.

Your old boyfriend, as sweet of a person as I'm sure he is, doesn't sound like something you actually want to follow through with. It sounds like nostalgia combined with your less than great relationship feels are making it really easy to go back to something safe and familiar. Three years is a long time, and he could have changed as a person in that time, but unless you can see the evidence of that (he's more motivated, has a job or goals, etc) you will ultimately feel the way you did that led to the breakup in the first place.

If this sounds harsh at all, I don't mean to. I'm actually at work and trying to get this posted before leaving :P I'll elaborate or give a better explanation if ya like

Thanks for your advice. I believe this is exactly what I would say to someone else in this situation. However, I seem to not be able to be sensible regarding my own issues... I feel like I'm just here contemplating where my life is heading.

Also, I'd like to thank the anonymous piece of advice I received. I didn't know Subeta had this functionality. :)