This is quite a long story, so kudo's if you manage to read the entire thing.

I've been on a mental health ward (more specifically, a treatment ward for personality disorders) for about eight months now - it's my fifth admission and I'd like to say 'hopefully, my last', but I know it most likely won't. Most people don't hide their opinion of thinking I'm the most severe case this ward has seen and not transferred in quite a long time. To be completely honest, it hurts when people say that. People I've gotten close to here have asked me, 'do you think you'll ever get out of hospitals completely? Don't you think they should've transferred you to a closed ward a long time ago? What the hell, why didn't they do that yet?'

For a long time, I've been alright with being in hospital. Or maybe not alright, but I coped. I coped with the idea of 'I'm here now, I'm here to get stronger, I'm going to college next september, it's okay.' I thought I could cope with not going to college this year (I actually enjoy learning a lot and I'm hoping to go to college and then university. I'm eightteen and I graduated last spring, one year later than I should've, due to all the stuff that has been going on. I actually should've been in university already, age-wise. All my friends who are not in hospital, are.) but I can't. I miss school. I'm afraid I'll never be able to go back, because I'm too ill. No matter how much I want to, I'm pretty scared that I've been telling myself lies about being able to go back to school.

I'll be out of this ward in approximately four months, because maximum time to be here is a year. The treatment team first told me to go to social services and see if I could get dole. Social services said they couldn't due to a recent law change. Then I went to the municipality, as adviced by social services, to ask if they could do something for me. They told me off and also told me I had to un-register (is this proper English? It's not my native language, I'm sorry) to the municipality since I spent most of my night in another municipality - being the one the hospital is at. I can't register to that one however, since I'd have to register to the hospital's address and that's not allowed by law. That means that the municipality I've lived for over seven years is basically making me homeless - I sleep at the hospital, but when I actually have to unsubscribe (I've postponed it so far) I will not have an address. This, by the way, is also illegal.

So, all right. No money, no address. Not a great situation, but the treatment team adviced me to look into sheltered housing (which was not at all a bad idea, even though I hated it at first - I'd like to just live in my own like other eightteen year olds but sheltered housing would also mean I would not be on my own during psychological crisis and other hard times, which is a good idea because I can't cope with those.) but it turned out the hospital could not refer me to sheltered housing - the municipality has to. And since you've read this story so far, you've discovered my municipality is ran by a bunch of assholes, who do not want to refer me because they do not think it is necessary.

I personally would think that major depression, personality disorder, recurring suicidality and self-harming behaviour are pretty great reasons to refer someone to sheltered housing, but whatever. It would cost them money and they rather spend that on things other that are not taking care of the mentally ill.

So right now, there are no options. Literally none. Please do not ask me where my parents are - that's an even longer story. I feel like I've got no perspective, no future, nothing at all. I do not want to become one of those crazy homeless people who go even more crazy because they get no help, but it doesn't look like something other than that is my future right now. Last time I felt this hopeless, which was last september, I ended up sectioned and restrained in medical hospital after overdosing and I didn't gain anything but another traumatic memory, which is a good reason for not wanting to end up there again. I honestly wish they wouldn't have forcedly treated me and I would've just died - I already know I'm not going to get better, I'll only get better at 'dealing with it', and if I'm also going to be homeless, there's seriously no point in staying alive I think.

I'd understand if you don't have any advice for this, but it's nice to just vent, I guess. So thanks for reading this if you did.

- Wow, I'm just disgusted at how everyone seems to be dismissing your case. Is there any sort of government agency that you can report what is happening to you to? Does no one understand that if you're homeless, you're just going to get worse? I'm really concerned.

I do know the feeling of no one taking your case seriously. I've had no one take my case of being abused by my parents seriously, because I'm an adult and the abuser is not a spouse. But, I'll say your case is worse than mine.

It's not about whose case it worse. It's terrible when abuse doesn't get taken seriously - I've had that happen to me before and that's a really bad thing to have happening to you. I'm sorry about your situation, please know that if you want to talk to someone who understands, I'm here for you.

There isn't really anyone I could report to - I did some research and basically I can ask the municipality to 'test their decision based on the principles of decent governance', but that literally means asking the organisation who is screwing up to look at it and ask them if they see they're screwing up. Pretty pointless, I'm afraid. The only thing I could do is take it to the media, but that also means publicly outing myself as someone with severe mental illness, and that's not something I'd really like to do of course.

- Yeah, I see your point. It would be pointless to ask the organization anything.

As for the media, it is worth the risk. You're at a point of needing a last resort. If you don't want to be publically known, then you can ask to remain anonymous, at least with public publishings and air time. The media can be really effective at investigating and helping people who have been wronged. And, if anyone acts negativity towards your situation, they're not worth anything.