Around midnight on Sept 20th, my childhood best friend died in a car wreck. She had turned 22 four days before she died... and it's starting to feel sort of real and it scares me really badly. Like there was some part of me that felt like I'd just see her again at Christmas and talk to her then about all of this... and then I realize that I'm not and it just doesn't make sense.

How do I handle the death of a friend? It's so scary and I just want to hug her and for her to tell me that it's alright. I just want her to respond to my snapchats. This is so different than mourning for someone that died of cancer or an older person. It just doesn't seem fair and I'm angry and I'm sad and I'm scared and I don't know how to really make it better.

EDIT: Thank you Anon. You know who you are, but your message meant so much to me. <3