For most of my life, my birthday has been incredibly depressing. A week ago, I felt my annual depression creeping up. I was so determined that I would not spend my birthday crying in a corner listening to sad and/or angry music, wishing the day away. I managed to get myself in check and push away the impending depression. I have had a life filled with much pain, and hatred, because of the PTSD I got from childhood torture and abuse. I have worked so hard to grow past it all, and while I still have some issues, I am so much better, and no longer suffer from flashbacks that were mentally and physically painful. For the first time, I wanted to be happy on my birthday, and felt that I deserved to be. When I woke this morning I was sad, because I am missing some vital people in my life, but instead of crying or retreating to a corner, I put on music that sparks my soul, lightens my heart, and brightens my fire. Then I got a message from my brother expressing to me that he recognizes my growth and strength, and also that I am still getting stronger, every day. I must say, that completely shifted my mood. I no longer feel any sadness, just joy. I keep leaking tears of joy and appreciation that someone in my family recognized these things about me.

So now I am going to say it to myself, HAPPY FREAKING 30th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

sounds like you had a great birthday!!!!