Firstly -- rest assured that you gave your beloved dog a very good life. I had my dog Jasmine since I was six or so, and we had her put down a few years ago after letting her get a little too sick. She would bite her legs raw, so we bandaged her up. She was losing all her hair, so we gave her baths or shaved her fur. She had a tumor that made it difficult to get up, so we rarely made her move. I still feel guilty about this (although I was ~16 or so at the time) but I know that she had a good life before it began to decline. We loved her and I think it's natural for humans to have trouble accepting or realizing the physical states of our loved ones (especially when they turn so quickly), even animal companions. After all, you've had them so long, they become integral parts of your life! You aren't alone. Please know that your little buddy loved you, and I'm sure he felt your love, too.

As far as your relationship, I obviously don't know deeper / long-term details, but from an outsider's perspective... that doesn't seem like an attitude you'd want in someone you're going to marry. Again, I don't know deeper details, but you deserve more than that. And I'm especially sorry that you're going through both these things at once :(

Edit: for trouble relaxing, try:

• drinking tea
• listening to whatever music you like/will calm you
• go on a walk
• take a bath (temperature depending on whatever works for you, warm or cool)
• go to the beach or somewhere outside that you find relaxing or fun, fresh air is underrated!
• just generally do something you enjoy
• lean on your family and friends! They're there for love and support. <3 This is a troubling time for you and having people you care about around you may help.
• also remember that you won't feel the pain forever. I've never been in a relationship so I can't exactly connect there, but the pain of losing my dog has mostly healed. I still miss her but it doesn't hurt so much.

Thank you so much for your supportive response. I am very sorry about Jasmine; although we should be prepared for our dogs to go before us, it is extremely disheartening. I am hanging to the fact that he did have a great life as well. <3

It is! I don't know if we can ever really prepare ourselves for the loss. I do hope you sort out everything with your relationship too and feel better soon, no matter what happens.

Can I ask what your dog's name was? And what kind/breed he was?

Again, I thank you for your kind words. His name was Faísca (which is portuguese for "sparkle"). He was eleven years old and had no breed. Most of my dogs came from the streets, as I live somewhere people tend to abandon their animals, and we just let them in. Faísca was our first dog. I'll leave a picture. Feel free to share Jasmine's, if you wish. :)

Aww, that's the perfect name! What a handsome dog. Terrible that people abandon their animals :( But great that you take care of them. What are your other dogs' names? :^)

Jaz was a mix too. This was her on her last day.

:) The others are Micas, Minnie (his daughter) and Dorinha. She is adorable and you can still see her smile on those pictures!

I'm so sorry about your dog. :c I understand how hard it can be. When I lost my dog that I had for fourteen years, her passing was anything but easy.

As far as the relationship goes, that doesn't sound like a guy I'd be wanting to marry. I don't know what's gone on besides what you've posted but that does sound some alarms for me. I wish you the best in figuring out the best thing to do there.

Sorry to hear about your dog. It sounds like he had a wonderful life with you and your family, and it is important to remember those happy times, and not dwell on what you should or should not have done.

As far as your relationship to your boyfriend....from what you had mentioned it sounds like he hides the truth or tries to redirect problems or issues onto you, blaming you for what has happened. That does not sound like a happy or healthy relationship, when one person (you) is trying to help the other (him) and he accuses you of creating chaos. That is a really strange statement to make.

You were genuinely concerned for his condition and asked him about being drunk, he denied it and he began to bully you. If the situation were reversed, and you had called him saying the same odd statements, what would he have done? Would he have shown any concern, or would he yell at you, or blame you?

,remember that you are a wonderful person, and that you deserve happiness. You'll need to examine your relationship and determine what is best for you. HUGS

Thank you, and I'm sorry for your dog as well. ;_;

We have spoken about it and he claims that he doesn't like to apologize before understanding the problem, and that he is sincerely sorry for taking so long to do so. However, I still quite don't understand how he doesn't notice when he does something wrong. Thanks for the support. hugs back