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I'm so sorry for your loss. I think that sometimes the shock of what has happened just prevents you from having the instant strong emotions and crying. Like you are too shocked to fully process it. I also sometimes find that when everyone else is distraught you feel like you need to be the strong one. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to cry because everyone else is crying and they need to be supported. There is absolutely nothing wrong with not crying. Maybe at some point you will think of something or see something or feel something and you will cry, or maybe you never will. It doesn't matter. Crying isn't the only way to express grief.

I'm very sorry for your loss!

I think your reaction is normal. Not everyone expresses grief the same way and just because you don't feel sad now, doesn't mean you won't be sad later. Sometimes things need to sink in. And don't let anyone make you think that you must not care; they have no way of knowing how you feel and how you deal with your feelings!

My grandfather passed away almost 10 years ago. I loved him very much but I didn't have an emotional reaction until they played taps at his funeral. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

Sending you good vibes! :)

Thank you both. I am still in shock. I definitely feel like I need to be the strong one. Today it was very hard to see my 12 year old brother sob because his best friend/dad is gone. Dad was healthy just a week or two ago. No one saw this coming. Sorry about your grandfather, Molly.