So my current job is going WAY beyond stressful. When I started the WORST thing was being up before the sun and staying late just resulted in sore feet. I never felt put out to stay nor stressed about the job and it's duties. We've been through 3, yes THREE, store managers since I started a little over a year ago. The first two were awesome and kept things simple. So if the task was get the paper folded into such and such size that's all it was. This current one will not only hand down the tasks but also nit pick they way you do them. I'm constantly insulted under her breath about how slow I am, how annoying it is I won't drop what I'm doing to go wipe up a TINY soda drip. She never has a schedule out in advance and expects you to just know despite the fact she changes the days people work and have off all the time. Since she took over 2 months ago there has been no steady scheduling, many things are not done because she won't allow any overlap. The stress for this job went from nil to through the roof for me. I DREAD going to the building to even go get gas anymore because she thinks everyone should be workaholics like her so if I show up to shop she tries to get me to work on something for 20 minutes (not labor but think like paper work or answering questions about things that happened on last shift). I just can't take it anymore, it's killed my time with friends, my now ex (which I'm sure this partly played in his wanting to break things off), my family, even for taking care of my home and errands. I'm so done if I could walk out with ZERO things affected I would have, but them bills :/

I have applied for and gone through the 2nd BG check for a new job that will pay more and provide a steady consistent schedule where the only changes will be for people being ill or late. That's it. Not a bad thing by any means but the nervousness of waiting to hear back on when it starts the training is also not helping the previous stuff. Only because I have to play nice at the current job until I can split from it. Gaining this job will alleviate SO much stress and I can be a happier person for it indeed even if it pays a bit less as a whole. The hours are part time, but that is good because it means the company can save on OT pay by allowing me to help cover vacations or people being ill.

My car has been a major headache source for me. It failed emissions. Took it to a shop to have it looked at, to do the proper repairs was going to be 600 plus labor and still wasn't a for sure fix. So now I'm looking to sell it quick to someone who CAN give it the attention it needs. This will leave me car-less until I find a new one. Not too bad of a thing but it sucks because I got this current car from my inheritance of my dad's death. The car is updated on it's tabs because apparently having it looked at and even declining the repair is a pass? idk

A couple of days ago I was working a closing shift so I was off really late but had had a good day. My BF came home to see me on his lunch, came to my work to see me even and give me hugs and kisses and wanted to know if I would be home on time. The few nights before that he was always so excited to see me get home, asking when I'd be home, even staying up one night to get to see me before he headed to bed. Hell he even told me he was considering marriage, that he didn't want to live the rest of his life without me. So naturally when I came home that night and he said he wanted to talk I thought it was going to be a nice talk. How wrong I was. He said he was done trying to hold us together, that to break up now was the best mercy he could spare me... We were together 2.5years. He was so sweet to me not even HOURS before. I'm still reeling from it all of course because my mind can't fathom HOW you go from all lovey and I want to be near you to let's split up... I'm exhausted because sleep is tough given all the memories that keep coming to mind. I'm also rarely eating. I get a bit hungry but my hormones are just out of whack. Not only did he dump me my period showed up as well the same night and well my insides aren't good. When I do eat it's back out in about 10 minutes either as vomit or well the other end that also is not fun, however I am drinking fluids so I'm not totally untaken care of. However things puzzle me that make me wonder if this isn't like a break to him? He says he'd happily add me to his cell phone plan, sign up for a car if I need help to get on a car, wants to go to movies just me and him, still wants me to go with him to his families functions. His family is awesome though and willing to help me out if I need it. Apparently they weren't kidding when they said they loved me for the person that I am. I'm also sure my terrible work schedule and being stressed didn't help out in this situation.

After this break up my friend just constantly bashed on my relationship choices. She is so strict about EVERYTHING that it's no wonder she never gets past one dinner with anyone. I myself am well aware that it's good to have qualities you want in a partner, but that allowing some wiggle room is going to allow you to have some actual happiness. Yet she complains she never finds anyone worth dating. So of course her telling me to just never date again, that I make bad choices didn't sit well.

When our mom died she had a house that was owed $30k on it still. Well my sister was into drugs at the time and wanted full power to "handle" our mom's affairs. I told her no that we go together or hire someone. Since we stalemated on it everything sat and well now there's a huge lawsuit of the state VS us to recover costs of boarding the house up. The house has been broken into over 20 times and so the state said to board and lock it. The stress from the thought that because at the time she wanted to be greedy and get everything she could to buy drugs that is resulting in this now is beyond frustrating. The stress of how it's going to affect things, the fact that it even came to this is very heart breaking.

I'm so overwhelmed by all this going on at once it's VERY hard to remember to take a breath. I'm at the point I'm trying to ignore all of it rather than handle it and I know it all needs dealt with one way or another.