I am so weary lately, it's hard to get out of bed. I have a lot of medical problems that cannot be addressed right now. I live in a tiny apartment with an 18 month old that gets into everything (I love him, but it's really difficult) and I have a good boyfriend, a great one, actually- but he's studying to get these certifications and quit his job to get through with it more quickly, but we are suffering and in dire financial straits for the time being because of it. I'm tired of feeling isolated and sickly and depressed. Good things are on the horizon for me but I'll be damned if it feels like we will never get over this hump. u.u

I just needed to vent, I guess.

I'm glad you're well on your way to something better! I'm thankful that these things are all transitory, something that isn't always so apparent. If you want to talk more people are listening, but I admire that you're still moving forward, even if it's hard.

Sometimes you can search your area for sliding scale clinics that can treat and bill you based on your household income. You might also want to look and see if your boyfriend's campus has student health & counseling services and if they would extend to you.

Otherwise, maybe look around your area for places you can get out of the house for a bit? A nearby park or walking trail where you and the little one can go to get some sunshine and activity and not be cooped up in the same place all the time.

The transition period of having to wait for the good things and deal with the soon-to-end bad is rough. Keep your eyes on the end goal and remind yourself often that this isn't forever. Maybe determine the date when things will start changing and have a countdown where you allow yourself little celebrations when you reach milestones. It sounds corny, but sometimes it helps to have a visual aid of the time coming to a close. I've made little paper chains in the past, one link for each day until I was finished with whatever was dragging me down at the time. Taking one off at the end or the start of a day felt really good, especially seeing how short the chain got over time. And that way, you look forward to something without, you know, just sitting around and wishing your life away. (Which is something I try to avoid in these situations because that makes me even sadder.)