Hello,

Currently I am an intern at a graphic design studio, it's close to home and I'm having a great time there. But after my summer break I'll have to take another internship. At first I really wanted to go abroad, like Berlin or Barcelona, and people told me that I would fit in well. But some time passed by and especially my counselor keeps telling me I really should do this because it's a once in a lifetime opportunity. But the more he tells me I should do it, the less it seems attracting to me. It makes me wonder if it's what I want, or what people want for me. I thought I was ready for it but now I'm not so sure anymore. And since getting an internship in both cities isn't going too well I'm getting quite anxious too. I just want an internship and I want it quick so I can focus on my current internship and the essay I have to write about it.

I feel like I won't be missing out on anything, I've been travelling the world with my parents and brother since I was thirteen, I've seen wonderful things. I'm twenty-one now, only lived by myself for three months and than came running back because I wasn't ready. Then why would I be ready for this? I know I'll have to take steps to find something great but, I'm not even sure if I'm doing this for me or for the people who want me to do this.

Then again, I am afraid to tell people because I don't want to let them down, which is so silly. I would just want this all to go smoothly and not worry so much over things, the closer it gets the more anxious I get. I don't even know how to inform my parents about this, I mean I should just tell them, it's not like I am pregnant but it's just idk, I don't want people to think that I would just give up. I just wish people would stop telling me I can do anything, it makes me so damn unsure about myself.

I am sorry about the length of this, I never intended it to be so long. Any advice is welcome and thank you all in advance! <3

It's awesome that you have some very supportive people in your corner that believe in you, but I understand why you feel pressured and anxious about letting them down.

Ultimately, this decision is for you and your future. It's wonderful to have the opportunity to travel and live somewhere else while you do your internship, but the idea has to appeal to you first and foremost. If you would rather take an opportunity closer to home, that's perfectly fine too! Perhaps the people around you might have a hard time understanding why you wouldn't want to travel abroad, but it sounds like as long as you're being proactive and doing what you want, they'll be happy for you.

You sound happy with the experiences you've had, and if you don't feel like you'll be missing out then perhaps you have your mind made up. If you don't want to leave, then that's okay! You're so young anyway, there's PLENTY of chances for you to travel later if you want.

I really doubt your parents would freak out, I'm sure if you explain how you feel they'd understand. Good luck, and I hope you find another internship soon!