ants and blood, guys.

even though i'm totally okay with spiders and snakes and all that crap, ants freak me the hell out. some background: my parents house recently became a centenarian and during the years we spent restoring it, every spring we'd have ant infestations. i remember seeing ants running around in my bed or finding their bodies in the honey realizing there was no escaping those fuckers.

and ugh, blood. seeing other people's blood is the worst, which sucks because i really love scary movies but the moment things get gooey i'm out :(

what are your biggest fears cc?

I have top 3 fears which I think are pretty silly but... :|

3. Fires. I have this irrational fear that maybe when I'm not home a fire will start. Idk. I'm weird like that. Maybe it has something to do with all the stuff plugged in and on while I'm away and like, "what if a random spark comes out and a fire happens?" Just some random paranoia I shouldn't have.

4. Change. I don't like change at all. I want things to always stay the same and when something comes up that I have to do that's out of the ordinary or it's not into my daily life, I get nervous, panick-y, frustrated, etc. I know things have to change but most of the time I just can't accept that.

5. Bugs/spiders. No. Just no. I hate all bugs (except walking sticks). Spiders are a definite "GET IT AWAY FROM ME, PLEASE!" no matter how small or harmless. I can't even look at a picture of a spider without freaking out. It's definitely not healthy.

Flying. I' don't even know but thinking that a 100 ton metal thingy can stay up in the air just with some weird magical powers....nuh uh nope.

Ghosts. People usually look at me really weird when I say this for obvious reasons, but I'm honest to god terrified of ghosts/specters/the supernatural/general invisible spooky things.

I've had this crippling fear since I was a kid, not sure why or where it comes from but it's about the only thing I'm really, truly afraid of.

I'm afraid that I'll lose control of my anxiety disorder/sociophobia and lose my job because of it. I've quit a couple of jobs in the past simply because I panicked and told myself I couldn't do it so I quit. But I can't lose this job. I love it. It's the best job I've ever had, the best boss, the best coworkers, and yes, some parts of it are a little hard, but the thing is, I can do it and I can't forget that. So actually, I guess my biggest fear is losing this job. This is the first job I've had that I can see myself here for the next 30 years or so.

Any of my other fears...heights, spiders, the dark...seem inconsequential compared to that.

Maggots - even though I know that's stupid and they don't do anything but... eeeewwww! And I go crazy whenever I see any.

I have anxiety, so there's some weird, seemingly normal stuff that can get to me.

Showers have always been my biggest fear. As far back as I can remember I've been having panic attacks while showering. When I was really young I'd need someone in the room talking constantly or I'd begin to panic (usually my sister). As I got older I was okay to be alone in the room, but the door needed to be wide open and someone had to be on the same floor (within earshot). By the time I moved out, the door still had to be open, but there just had to be someone home (my roommates were all very understanding and supportive). Eventually I did go on anxiety meds and it almost cleared up completely; even after I stopped taking them, it didn't come back to the same degree. I now live with my husband and can shower while alone in the apartment; I do still get the occasional panic attack, but I can usually sense them coming a lot sooner and they're significantly less frequent. I still need to leave the door open, though; and I've always been VERY particular about what kind of shower curtain I use. It can't block out light, but it can't be transparent either (white or light green has worked best). (NOTE: I have always practised proper hygiene; just 'cause I was scared shitless doesn't mean I ever went without bathing. XD)

I also have a type of agoraphobia, in the sense that I have a very difficult time leaving the house by myself. If I'm going out with someone (either heading out together or meeting nearby) I'm usually fine; but going out 100% by myself is often too much. Even if it's just to the store two blocks away, I really need to psyche myself up in order to be able to go. Because of this I've been having a hard time committing to a job. I've been working casual contracts for the last few years; I'll go in for anywhere between a couple days to a couple months, depending on what's needed. But, I'll be honest, I'm off contract more than I'm on. My husband reassures me he doesn't mind having a housewife, and I really don't mind being one; I just don't want to intentionally isolate myself and end up worse because of it. So I do still try and push myself out of my comfort zone every now and again, and I do feel like I am making progress. (Hilariously enough, despite this I'm actually a very outgoing person, and I have an easy time making friends. XD)

Aside from those, I have a few standard things; I don't like most bugs, spiders or worms, and heights can mess with me. Oh, and I'm always terrified I'll either be mugged or my apartment will get robbed - even though I've never experienced either of these before.

Bears - I spend a lot of time in nature, so it's not that weird for me to be scared of bears, I suppose. I saw one as a kid. Also, too much Ginga: Nagareboshi Gin.

Pregnancy. I don't want kids. I hate kids. I seriously have nightmares about pregnancy sometimes. I'm really paranoid about it.

Seas/oceans. This is probably my most irrational fear? Thinking about deep waters makes me really anxious. :c Sea creatures look so creepy to me. Swimming in anything but a shallow lake always makes me a little uneasy, because I feel like there could be ANYTHING below me. I can't even look at online maps unless it's zoomed in so close that I only see like one city or something.

I also have that thing where I find it really hard to leave the house by myself! Going to the store is always a huge event for me (even though there's one right across the street). I never even take out the trash or check my mail unless I'm going somewhere else on the same trip. It's like I'll only leave the house if I have multiple tasks to complete. Going to school isn't so bad anymore, I'm kinda on autopilot in the morning so I don't even notice what I'm doing until I'm standing at the bus stop. :P I find that the only thing that helps my anxiety is just pushing myself to do the things that scare me, repeatedly. It just gets worse the longer I avoid situations that cause me anxiety.

Deep water is a massive fear for me. As long as i can touch the floor i'm fine, but when it starts getting deeper and deeper i start to freak out. I'm not a very good swimmer either so that doesn't help, i just feel like i am going to drown. I'm also not a big fan of the sea. I mean, it's beautiful and there's so much life in it, but i can't help but fear it. That i could get swept out at any moment, that anything could be lurking in the darkness, i hate it! Even the seaweed freaks me out! That leads on to another fear actually. Plants. Not all plants bother me, in fact i actually love a lot of flowers. It's just the big ones, like sunflowers, cacti and don't even get me started on corpse flowers. That's some serious horror movie shit. I also don't want to be anywhere near big mushrooms. The idea that they have spores and that its the same stuff as mould makes me feel sick, i don't even want to breathe near them. I would NEVER touch one. I think watching jumanji as a kid fucked me up when it comes to plants tbh.

I have a few other fears too which are bugs, noises the dark, change, big monkeys and people on hard drugs.

I'm afraid of wasps, I will fly into a blind panic when confronted with one, no matter the type. I'll panic about flies if I mistake them for wasps, I'll panic about buzzing sounds until proven not to be wasps. Funny thing, when they've been caught, I think they're kind of pretty and can look and hold the container. It's the free-flying murder-buzzer I fear.

Another one that has more to do with being around people. I fear people can see right through me and know how unsure I am, can tell what I am thinking and will think I'm weak, useless and stupid. I have issues, yes.

I also have one fear that is specific to dreams, if I see anything swaying back and forth in a dream, like a pendulum or stairs suspeded from the ceiling or a metronome, I usually jolt awake. I can control a lot of things in my dreams, but not pendulums and things that sway, and when they appear, my dreams become nightmares. As a result, I wake up and can't sleep for a while.

uuuugh I feel you with the flying thing. in addition to the fresh hell of panic attacks, I can't equalize pressure. so when everyone's chomping gum or holding their nose to pop their ears, I'm shit outta luck. my ear canals are too small thanks to the build of my skull (I used to have ear tubes for swimming as a kid), so all the pressure of pyooing off into the sky builds and builds inside my head until it feels like my brain's exploding. white hot, popping migraine, plus railing terror and panic equals no flying for me, no thanks, no sir.

Avoiding talking about super personal fears, I'd have to say I have a huge fear of elevators. I cannot go in them. I will take the stairs at all costs. I think it stems from a larger fear of being locked/trapped in an inclosed space.

Nothing terrifies me more than worms, or any creature that resembles a worm. They are demonic creatures from Hell.

I can't even eat gummy worms.

I used to hate ants with a fiery (and terrified) passion. i've sortof gotten over it. for some reason i suddenly love bugs. even when i see a spider i'm particularly terrified of i think it's adorable and admirable and i let it go on its way. anyways, i have a horrible fear of the ocean, and the deep ocean, and large things in the ocean, and being in the ocean. i also have a horrible fear of being chased. if theres even someone walking behind me in a place that is not largely populated, even if it's my house and the person rounding the hallway is my brother, i can't do anything other than curl up on the ground and die.

my worst fears mainly relate to my mental illnesses but i guess my biggest ones are -fear of abandonment (bpd says hi, + also this is where my trigger of suicide comes from, whoops) -heights (my brain likes to do the fun thing where i get intrusive thoughts and i imagine jumping off or falling off or smth. i Die) -spiders (not so much that i freak out if i see them? but i dont' want them near me. ever) -irl blood (it unnerves me so much, i Die)

i'm scared of tons of other things too due to social/general anxiety and generally feeling like my developmental brain is 10 yrs behind where i'm "supposed" to be, but, lmao whatever i guess

Same here, I hate elevators with a passion! Luckily, it's pretty easy for me to avoid them; I'm grateful my college doesn't have them.

Other than elevators, spiders are another biggie for me. I can't stand them and will run away if I see one.

I know you're going to say I'm corny, but here goes anyways :P

My biggest fear is my wife leaving me. I don't have a reason to think that it'll ever happen, but I've had many many nightmares where it's happened.

That and someone coming out of the mirror and killing me. I can't be in a room with a mirror without a light on.

Outside of the typical social phobia and without going into really personal fears, I have a few odds and ends.

Jellyfish. I can kind of appreciate their beauty (at least the ones that are glowy) so long as they're at an aquarium, but I've started to hate going to the beach. Never been stung by one and I don't ever plan to be, but I can't even look at pictures of them without getting a chill down my spine and feeling grossed out xP I'm fine with sharks, snakes, spiders and such, but not jellies, urk.

Depths. This one is kind of weird for me because I /love/ to swim and I'm a decent swimmer. Most of the time I'm totally fine, but sometimes if I'm swimming at the deep end of the pool and look at the markers for how deep the water is, I start to feel a bit dizzy and get a weird sense of dread, even though I know I'm totally fine and I can swim pretty well. I think this kind of ties into my anxiety though, because there's always that lingering, "what if" feeling, and, "this could be potentially dangerous!"

Flowers. Here's another weird one for me which has also been the source of some teasing, though it's gotten a bit less since I've gotten older. While I can't entirely explain this one, I think when I was younger I associated them with bees and poison (my grandmother had several big oleander bushes in her yard) and the fear just kind of lingered. I'm still cautious around them even now even if I know that that flower/plant isn't dangerous, and I can't stand the thought of them touching me unless I am in complete control of the situation, ie. me touching the petals of a rose/orchid, etc. I wouldn't be okay, say, having to go through a field of flowers where they'd be touching my legs, even though I can agree that it looks pretty.

Bees/wasps. I don't feel like this one needs an explanation x) I've only been stung a few times in my life, but it wasn't very fun. I'm just thankful that I'm not allergic to them at least, but I still go to great lengths to avoid them, including running away from them if they get too close xP

Clowns. Fuck clowns. John Wayne Gacy, Pennywise, and Twisty has made me terrified of all clowns.

Eyeballs/ Eye injuries. I realize this one is irrational but they just scare the hell out of them. I will pass out at the sight of an eye injury.

Large crowds in closed spaces/ Social phobia. This has always scared me and when I was in Spain almost two weeks ago, I was pressured to go to a club and I had a massive panic attack because there was so many people.