So long story short, I developed a brain tumour early on that gave me Epilepsy. I had the surgery to remove it only two weeks before my fifteenth birthday (I'm 21), which had been just in time to save me according to the surgeon. The surgery caused me to lose nearly all of the memories that could tell me who I was, so that combined with the realization that I could have died caused me a lot of heartache. Just when I thought I'd managed to overcome it all some years later, I was brought to my knees again when stress from college, meeting someone who knew me pre-surgery, and a couple of other factors lead me to developing what's known as Psychogenic Non-Epilepstic Seizures. (Psychogenic means emotional, I get them only when I block or choke down some strong emotion.) I didn't know they were non-epileptic at first though and the return of my Epilepsy had bee my greatest fear, so... that was a nightmare, to put it lightly. I started having panic attacks far too often, and would have one for even being on school grounds. It's caused me to lose almost all of my interest in going back to college, even though I was extremely passionate about going before.

Thing is, I still have a dream to work toward, and I absolutely cannot let anxiety or any other emotional issues keep getting in my way like this. Does anyone have any ideas on how to overcome this anxiety? It doesn't matter how scary the idea is, believe me when I say I can handle it. Also we don't have the money for therapy, and for both money and personal reasons medication are out of the question.

Perhaps meditation can help? If you take about 10 minutes each day (maybe before you fall asleep) and try to clear your mind, you might feel more relaxed overall. If you have trouble clearing your mind you can focus on relaxing each muscle in your body, one at a time, starting with your toes. Then focus on your breathing.

Also, don't forget to take a deep breath sometimes.

I hope this helps! Good luck.