Okay so I got married on Halloween 2014, I am happily married and everything. But of course the man who I have the hugest crush on in high school came back into the picture, we hang out and all but ... I get butterflies when i am near him and it feels so wrong but so good at the same time. ; ^ ; Why must the butterflies come back!! why :(

You shouldn't mix up a highschool crush with real love. You may get butterflies in your stomach when you're near with him, but why should it work out now what didn't work out back in highschool? :/ Btw, your cat signature is so hypnotizing @.@

I understand that. But its like because I couldnt get him in high school, I sorta have a chance now. But its soo complicated. I wish I did date him in highschool but he had a girlfriend at the time that was.. well how can i put it, .. how about so many mean words that make a person feel like a sack of empty skin? she used him, married his best friend for a green card and broke his heart. Its like I am given a second chance but I am married. and grrrrrr.

It sure is, i stare at it sometimes and just watch them dance.

Okay, that officially sucks. Life can be so mean at times...but the best thing to do is to listen to your heart (as cheesy as it sounds).

My heart wants him, though it is in love with my husband. Its like a game of tug a war, i dont know which way to go or if to fall and see which one picks me up. Follow the heart, well I will follow it wherever it wants me to go. :)

There's nothing wrong with having a crush. My husband and I share any crushes we have with each other. It's just a crush. Crushing and flirting is fun.

Thank you Starfleet! It makes me feel a lot better. and so.... as it may have happened I had this so called friend over, he is going to school for massage therapy and so he used me as a guinea pig and worked out all my muscles and stuff. Turns out I am more f*ed up than I thought. Nothing happened between us other than the massage which I am thankful for.

that sounds awesome

Mmm hm! And next monday if I am not working he will be comeing over again. and even if I am he still will. Which is awesome because I seriously need one of my shoulder blade muscles worked on really well. Cause as he worked on my back and all the tightness that was locked inside, he unleashed it all and allowed blood flow to the parts that were not getting it enough... Now my back is all bruised and sore but its a good sore because then I know its going to get better with more massages and stretches.

Does your husband know he's coming over and giving you massages, and that you fancy him? Don't do anything you might regret, if you love your husband :(

My husband knows he has come over to give me a massage. The part of me having a fancy for him is well, still something that hasnt come up. But yes I love my husband with all my heart and nothing will get in the way of it. A crush is a crush i believe.