Hey there,

I've been in a bad, baaad mood the last time. It's been some rough months and I think I can't cope it well. Let me explain you some things (long post of self pity coming in) :

• I was in a short relationship with someone I was actually very happy (for the first time in my life) and he broke up, since then everything started to become...suckish.
• He told me he just wants to be friends, ignores me for days and then...he told me straight that he thinks I'm super hot, blabla and wants to fuck with me. And yes, we did it a few times. I regret it to no end now.
• After this, I got a bad feeling. I cut down the only connection we had in a shortcut reaction (deleted whatsapp today) and he only told me when I contacted him about it "Oh well. You're going to disappear from my life. Wish you the best." He didn't care at all (actually, nobody cared or even noticed)
• I always have to be nice at work(working in customer service) which is very hard for me at the moment. The few of my friends left there left the workingplace without telling a thing...
• I have the urge to throw rocks at happy people
• All men I've had contact with only wanted to fuck me
• Want to move out asap, but I can't get my shit straight
• My bladder is being a dick and I always have to pee so bad
• The last time I went out was...two months ago? Since then I've been alone
• I hate myself for crying so hard right now
• My other ex-bf is trying to kill me whenever he sees me outside
• I'm jealous of other girls somehow...don't ask me why.
• Started smoking again
• And as you can tell, I have no friends.

Does someone have some good tips how to cope with all this stuff...better? I know there are a lot worse things in this world (which makes me also sad), but still. I feel poopy. Really. (Going to bed and try to catch some sleep right now, I hope I can answer tomorrow)

What is your living situation right now, exactly?

Ignore that short relationship. Things didn't work out, he sounds like a douche and it's a good thing for you that it's over. Don't regret it, it was a learning experience.

As for work, just do your best even if you have to fake it. When things calm down you'll be glad you didn't do anything to sabotage that bit of normalcy left in your life.

If it is true that literally every man you talk to a lot is like this, it's probably because of how you're meeting them and/or who you tend to be attracted to and why. Try to change the venues you're meeting them at. If it's online, try changing your profile to put more emphasis on non-sex things.

Also, you should see a doctor/free clinic to see if you have a urinary tract infection.

I hope you start feeling better soon. In the meantime, I'd suggest finding some interest or hobby to really throw yourself into for a while to avoid feeling so down.

Thank god I got the rest of the month march off, so I now have the time to order my stuff completely. I've been looking for a new flat so I can finally move out. After I noticed my firend was really only looking for sex, I've cut the connection. It's hard but I think I'm going to get over it.

Thanks for your answer :)

I had to delete whatsapp too. It is very hard when you are attracted to someone emotionally and their goals were physical. Sex sends the message, “I am entirely yours,” so when a lover takes that back, it is like being betrayed by someone you trusted with everything.

You might like the song lovesick by Misty Edwards, or you may not. I just learned about it this hour, and can't quite put my finger on how it pertains to this issue, but it does.

I know what you mean by the whole 'every guy just wants to have sex with me' thing. I experienced that really horribly when I was in school, and it made it really hard to make guy friends or anything because most of them just wanted to see me naked. But if you make it clear enough that you're not interested in that sort of nonsense, most of them back off. Any that don't, you didn't have any business hanging out with in the first place.

I would definitely take some you time, and just try and get your head back on straight. Just spend some time pampering yourself and doing things you enjoy to help get you out of your funk. And I know it's hard, but really try not to feel guilty about crying. Sometimes you just need a good cry and despite the headaches and sore eyes, it really does help to get it all out.

I also second 's comment about going to see a doctor about your bladder. Having that weighing down on you certainly doesn't help things either.