All my life, I've felt like the odd person out. I can make friends but I've found it difficult to maintain them. I'm an introvert because I was bullied and I've been living with severe Major Depression since I was 11, so that only makes matters worse.

I'm currently 26 and still in college. It took me a really long time to figure myself out (related to the depression). In the fall, I changed my major to History and have been happy with the choice. The history department at my school is rather small and the core students are all in their early 20s. At the beginning of the fall semester, everything was great. I made friends with the core students and started hanging out in the history department with them. Towards the end of the semester, I started to feel like the odd person out. It felt like they weren't talking to me as much. I wouldn't allow myself to introvert and I kept hanging out with everyone. I also wasn't sure because everyone was stressed out with classes and drama with the history department and the dean of the school. I had hoped everything would return to the way it was at the beginning spring semester.

But it doesn't feel like it has. I still feel like the odd person out. I hang out with everyone and it feels like they all talk around me but not to me. I'm getting tired of trying to insert myself into a conversation. For example: yesterday, we were hanging out and two of the guys, I'll them call them Mike and Dave, started asking about science classes and asking everyone if they had their required classes. When they got to me, they skipped me and went to the girl, Mary. Another example: today was one of the guy's birthdays. I'll call him Nick. We were sitting there and they were talking about where they were going to go for dinner for his birthday. But it felt like I wasn't being invited. I mentioned to Dave it felt that way and I was sorry if I was sounding immature. He shrugged and said, "I don't know." Then I mentioned that I like being included in things and Mike said, "okay. We'll keep that in mind".

So, I'm just wondering, am I the odd person out again or am I playing this up in my head? It's really bothering me because I hang out up there and if I'm the odd person, I'll stop going where I'm unwanted. I also don't want to ask if they like me or not because I don't want to sound like a whiny little girl.

I'd really like to figure this out because the department is taking a strip to Spain in May and I really want to go however, if I'm going to be the odd person and alone the whole trip, than I'm going to save my money and take my own vacation.