I'm sorry you're going through this.

I do believe what your father did was a breach of trust, but I also think it can be healed. He is trying to help you and probably does not understand how he betrayed you. He needs to understand that he is your only outlet and that trust is very important and very hard for you. He needs to know that you CHOOSE not to confide in your psychiatrists and that's okay. You need time to develop trust with them, and that revealing stuff to them that you aren't ready for them to hear will only slow down your progress, not speed it up.

Your dad needs to be told that the best way he can help is to be that trusted outlet.

There are many resources available to both you and your father online. There are support groups for parents and ones for you. Look for them, research them and see if you think any might be able to help you.

You do not have to earn help and consolation, they are your rights simply for being human. If someone is hurting, you help them. You don't stop to ask yourself "what did they do to deserve my help?" Try to treat yourself with that same respect.

Yes, if you feel comfortable doing so, show him this thread. Communication is very important and however you can best get your point across is a good way to do it. Or you can just copy parts of it into something like notepad and edit it however you'd like.

I understand how you feel about the group thing. I don't like being around people either. If you think you can stand to do it once or twice, though, I recommend doing it. That way you can say to your psychiatrist that you tried and how you felt about the experience. It might make it easier for your psychiatrist to work out ways that work better for you. Can you perhaps consider talking to people in a forum or chat room instead of face to face? Maybe you can suggest that as an alternative to your psychiatrist.

Psychiatrists and psychologist often have their own ideas about what their therapy should accomplish. However, its your life and they should be working toward your goals, not theirs. You might want to think about exactly what those goals are and write them down so you can show them to your therapists.

How you see yourself and how others see you is usually very different. Its hard to say from a few posts, but it seems to me that all you can see are your own faults, and you can't see any of the good parts. But everyone has good things about them, and even if you can't see them, others do and that why they try to make friends with you and stick around through what you think of as the bad stuff.

You also need to understand that your mother has problems. Her abuse, reading your private notes, and all the other bad things she has done to you are NOT because you are a bad person. Yes, you suffer the consequences, but they are her problems. You did nothing to deserve that from her.