A little back story.

When I first came out I dated a friend of mine for a week. I don't even really consider it a relationship. We went to a horse show and we didn't do anything but for some reason 19 year old me thought it was a good idea to date this girl even though we'd been friends for a few years. So after a week we broke up because I thought she was to clingy and annoying and I was honestly being a complete dick.

Fast forward three years. We meet up at the Equine Affaire (a giant horse convention) with a few of our friends and the girl I happened to be dating at the time. (That relationship ended almost as fast as it began as well but it's not important) We started flirted as soon as we saw each other. It was weird and nice and I realized how much I missed her. I apologized for being a dick and she apologized for being clingy and weird about it.

So basically long story short I'm falling for my ex who I don't consider an ex more like a best friend I tried to date once.

Is that totally messed up?

Not really. It was your first relationship after coming out, and it barely went anywhere, you were probably just young. (lol I say when I'm only 22). There never really was a chance for the relationship to go anywhere, so you're remembering all the reasons you liked her in the first place, and in this case there isn't really much bad to counteract it. It's been three years, you've both changed, and maybe this time it'll actually work out if you give it a real chance to.

I'm turning 22 so I know what you mean lol.

It's weird all of the things she used to do that bugged me I find funny now. I think we've been friends long enough that we know each other's likes and dislikes and stuff. When we were hanging out we wouldn't shut up. We must have talked for hours about nothing but it was a lot of fun.

Who knows where it'll go but I hope eventually something might work out from this.