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You don't owe anyone anything, not mom, not that kiosk manager. Just move now. And try to find a therapist when you move since it will really help you to talk to someone about these codependency ("emotional sponge" is a euphemism for this very destructive condition) problems.

Thank you for informing me of the correct term for it. It is something I'm aware of needing to seek help for, but have not done due to extensive school loans and lack of a decent enough job to support myself. I tend to only get this way around my family, which is where my issues lie and my lack of self confidence stems from. If I am not around them for long spans of time I find myself much more confident and less affected by the emotions of others like friends and acquaintances. It is on my list, but it's a long list that I have found ways to manage without therapy in the last few years until I can afford a professional. Thank you for taking the time.

I understand the money issue, I've put off multiple medical problems for years for the same reason. I don't like to recommend self-medicating but I understand your obstacles, so I think you should try to find some self-help books while you save up to see a doctor someday. Just make sure they're written by a licensed professional and read a couple reviews to see if they seem like they'll help. You can find stuff like this on Amazon and usually for very cheap as they tend to be paperbacks.

And if you don't want to talk about this, you don't need to. But I think you might also want to read something about grief, because it sounds like some of your problems stem from what happened with your father.

- I know what it's like to like with your family and feel stressed about it. I'm in that situation right now. But, unlike you, moving out is not an option for me. So, I say move out ASAP. And, don't feel like you must stay because of your mom. You have to look after yourself first.

As for the job, quit it now. It'll be better for them if they can hire and train someone else before the holiday rush starts.