I know when you will read the title you will feel like she only lost is grandfather it not the end of the world, it is for me.

He was the one how raise me and protect me, without him around me when I was young I will probably be in a foster or death in the worst case. He died three mouths ago and i just realize everything he did to make me happy, to protect me. Now I feel guilty because he die, and I was not able to help him. He was a father to me.

He was 82-year-old and raised at itself, three kids my two older brother and me. He was all time find a way to make us happy even if it was hard to him, and we never miss food and clothes. Now I, m alone in the house where i life for 19 year and I feel like it not my home anymore. I feel like a stranger. All time I look at is picture i start cry and feel like I was the one who make him go away.

I don't know what to do and all time I try to talk to that to my real friend, well I feel like they don't listen to me. I just want advice to move on and stop life in the past.

It's hard to loose someone you care about but the best thing to do is grieve and then be happy for the time you had together and try to live the way you were raised and in a way that would make that person proud. Try not to dwell on it though.

He raise me well and i learn much of him. It also hard to forget the pass and go in the present when you still life at the same place and feel like he look at you and judge you like he always did with me.