Home from the crisis center and I already cannot handle this.

They stripped me from my meds and put me on new medication. I’m bawling my eyes out in fear because there is a shadow figure in the corner of my room, humming. I was afraid to move or make any sound for help, and I am shaking so bad. My phone was across the room, my iPod is the only thing I have. My mother finally found me curled up in a ball, hiding under my blanket.

So right now I'm waiting for transportation to the unit, where I will most likely stay voluntarily for a good while.

Has anyone been to a crisis center before, be it for anything? Right now I would just like to talk to anyone whom I can relate to.

I've never been to a crisis center but I can imagine it's going to be quite a trying time for you, but it'll be worth it. I see that I'm replying to this a couple days late. Are you okay?

I just saw this today, so I'm sure you're at the unit by now. But I wanted to send good vibes your way and say there's no shame in needing to go back to the unit. If your illness isn't allowing you to cope outside right now, it's okay for you to go back. Don't feel bad about it. I don't know what to say in response to what you're feeling because I'm sure your feelings will have changed by the time you see this, but what you're going through sounds horrible and I'm sorry you have to experience any of this :c

Also I haven't been to a crisis center because there are none in my area, but I was committed to a short term intense psychiatric unit in August because I attempted suicide, so I've been through something similar. I hope you're okay, and you feel much better when you come back.

How are you doing, sweetheart? I hate to read that all that's happening to you. You're definitely not alone, though, I can tell you that much for certain.

I, myself, have been through loads of mental anguish. Two mental wards, a couple of 72-hr holds, and a good 20+ different kinds of drugs, 5 of which aren't remotely related to my standing diagnoses. Gotta love it. I won't bore you with the whole story, but you're far from being alone.

If you wanna hear my story and how I'm managing life, let me know and I can message you a good novel and some personal help tips and all that fun stuff. Free of charge, seeing as I'm no doctor. Just a lowly EMT.

Feel better, darlin'. <3