Hey, everyone.

It's my 20th birthday tomorrow, and I'm kind of sad really. My family's having some pretty serious problems that I can't really talk about... but we probably won't be spending Christmas together either. So... I'm sad. There have been tonnes of arguments, my mum and aunt have been crying a lot the past couple days and... I know it's selfish and horrible of me, but everyone is telling me about their problems and I try to help, but nobody's asked if I'm okay or even how I am.

I'm sorry, I know how selfish it sounds... I nearly called my cousin and his wife today and wanted to ask if I could go to their house for a while, but I can't tell them why I'm upset and they're pretty busy. I'm not close with many people. My closest friend never asks if I'm okay, and even when I just messaged her and said I was really sad, she only responded with a sad face and it's just kind of... I don't know. When she's sad, I'll talk to her for as long as she wants and give her advice and try and make her happy, but when it's me nobody cares.

I'm really, really sad and kind of don't really want to be around for my 20th birthday, or any birthday after that. Anyway... any advice on how to make myself cheer up? Sorry that I'm posting something like this when I haven't even been active for ages... but there's really nowhere else I can talk about it, I think.

Sorry that this is so long and boring and depressing, I'm really sorry. ;;

Why in the world is it selfish for you to want someone to ask you just once how you're coping with things?

- But, you have to stay around for your future birthdays! Life has amazing things in store for you! :) I know this... I used to feel like life wasn't worth living anymore. I was in an abusive home for the majority of my life and my peers bullied and ignored me. I grabbed on to the hope things will get better, and better they did! I'm so happy! I have a wonderful boyfriend, amazing friends, and going to school for a career I really like!

It's unfortunate you don't have people in your life that are willing to listen and talk to you. They're the selfish ones... they want your help but don't want to help you back. I highly recommend seeing a therapist. They can really help you get back on your feet. I'm also here to listen if you decide you want to talk.