Soo i'm turning 20 next month. I was just thinking that I will never be a teenager again. Ever. I have a habit of looking on the dark side of things, this being on of them. Life keeps going even if you're not there. What happens after death? I believe nothing. Do souls exist? I believe your brain is your "soul", but really who knows. Thats why they call them beliefs huh? Well sometimes I get depressed thinking about how one day i'm not going to be here.. it will happen and im another year closer to it. Thanks for reading my thoughts xP Contribute to this if you want.

i was so depressed when i turned 20 haha. i know exactly how you feel. i felt so old :unheart:

.. yea its really kicking in recently xP. How is getting older then 20? Do you get over the depression? xD

- Im 23 and still feel no different as a person... so I have never been 'depressed' about it.

Its all the state of mind, not the number assigned.

hmm I guess you're right. I just wonder about it and all. I never think how i'll be free from dealing with taxes xD no more working!

- I think everyone bares the burden of work and the hardship of live. I know I drive myself insane pondering the point of it all.

At the end of the day its kind of boring to dwell on things so I off to my own happy place for respite instead ^^

yep 21 wasnt that bad :D thankfully hahaha

i think im going through exactly the same thing as you, im 19 going on 20 aswell, and im just dealing with my nans passing, the first death ive had to deal with as an adult. And i was just thinking at the funeral i guess now im further up the list... I really dont want to be 20, i want to stay a teen forever if possible. I dont wanna loose anyone else in my life i just want things to stay as they are.

My mind just starts thinking about it. I get pretty sad. I'm not too sure why but it happens. I do try to keep my mind off of it but it's not easy.

..can't wait for 30 huh? xD that'll be a game changer

oh good thing everyone who has died was when i was younger and guess din't believe i'd ever die. My one friend passed away. It was kinda weird knowing you could never talk to them again :/

yeh, its just much harder to believe than it was as a child.

yeah i try not to think that far ahead haha... i'm hoping 22 isn't that painful :( plus i like to think that by the time i'm 30 i will have my life in order haha

I din't even acknowledge death as a kid :P now as you get older the possibilities seem to get more and more real.

oh if my life isn't in order yet.. shoot me. I sometimes think how it will feel but I guess I should live in the moment and wait to see how I feel at 30 hahaa.