I just want to cry and cut. I'm dealing with too much shit right now. My ex won't just tell me to shut up, he had his friend do it for him. I owe him money, but it isn't even worth giving it to him because I can't even find a job. I'll be giving him most of my financial aid money. I shouldn't have to put my health and well being on the line to pay him back. Yeah, I need to get over the break up but it isn't going to be instant.

If he doesn't want to deal with me he needs to just tell me, not send her after me. My mom wants me to just clean all the time and do everything around the apartment because I'm home all the time. I do nothing but sleep because I have no reason to get up and do anything. And there is so much more, but I just can't explain it all. I also haven't been taking my medication because I'm asleep all day and never really feel like eating enough so I could take them. If I don't eat enough I just end up throwing up and it's hard enough to get me to eat when I first get up.

I'd pay your ex back asap and cut ties with him and his friends. Borrow the money from your mom if you can because it would probably be easier to owe her and pay her back rather than someone you're trying to get over and move on from in your life.

By giving him your financial aid money, I assume that's money meant to pay back student loans? Contact your college's job center if you're having trouble getting employment. They can set you up with interviews and give you alumni connections.

Even if you're at home, start a routine. Get up at the same time every day (sleep in on weekends if you want), take a shower, get dressed with purpose, and eat something. You'll feel much better than sleeping and hanging out in pjs or sweats all day. If you can't eat when you get up, maybe make a fruit smoothie to take your medication with.

Please don't hurt yourself, you'll only regret it. ❤

I can't borrow money from my mom, she doesn't even have that much. I'm going to pay him back when I can. I'll work things out. I'm like so out of it today, I went shopping with my roommate and I haven't been taking my meds so I'm like all over it.

Make some kind of official document regarding the money because it sounds like a lot if I'm not mistaken. Maybe you guys can agree on some kind of timeline of payment. Both of you should sign it with witnesses so nothing shady happens later on. Give him a receipt whenever you start paying him back.

I'm glad you got out of the house. Even if you're not working you can stay active other ways. It seems like a waste not to take your meds though. You just need to get into a routine.