It's been almost two dozen years since I've first breathed the air of this planet. What is there to show for it? I've been jobless for over two months, I got kicked out of my sister's apartment because she was practically stealing my tax return money and I called her on the carpet for it, I'm now living in a tiny bedroom at my Mom's house until I can find a suitable date to move back in with my dad, and the closest friend I have lives two states away, and neither of us have the funding nor the time to visit with one another for more than a few days. I've been telling myself for years that my biggest goal in life is to have a novel published, but now, it seems, that goal is a dead one. I have no significant other, because it seems I'm just not young enough, pretty enough, rich enough, etc. no matter what I do to change it all. Most of my old high school friends have their lives in order, and then there's me...and all of the problems I've listed, and far more than just those.

Around this same time five years ago, I felt like a lost cause in the world of love. Now, I feel like a lost cause period. Why am I alive anymore? Why should I stick around? Why do I even bother discussing it here? There's no hope for me anymore. If I haven't gotten my shit together by now, I don't think I ever will. I'm worthless.

Giving up isn't going to help. Just believe and work hard towards your goals of life, don't let a bunch of downs pull you off a cliff.I'm only just beginning my life out of high school, but i still know one thing things are handed over.You want something don't listen to the negative about it , work for it.Start from the bottom of the ladder and work up , hard work pays off eventually.

About friends, friends far away are better then none, i have keep no friends around through high school, to much drama and boyfriend stealers. Just believe you are better, higher then anyone and you wont let no one stand in the way.

As for a job i don't have one, but you don't want to show them you think you know everything, just show them what you have, your good skills working with others and staying out of arguments that doesn't concern you.

I'm not the best at helping anything but i'm not telling you what you need to hear but what should be told , no one person is a failure, you have to wobble before you can fly, and still the best sometimes fall.