Hey guys. My b-day's in less than a week, but I feel like I'm having second thoughts. A guy like me can't handle all the bumps and bruises that life throws at me. Growing older and still being very shy makes me feel like more of a wimp and less of a man. Not being able to take peoples words and ignoring them also makes me feel like a wimp too. I don't think I'm ready to turn 15, what with all the crazy nonsense going on in my life. It's all a big hullabaloo these days when you have to worry about every little possible thing that might come at ya. My greatest disappointments always comes from my worries. Please know that if I'm sad, or mad, or in a great panic, it's because of all the bumps and bruises that just came at me. I'm thinking about getting a Summer job soon, but I need to pull myself together if I want it. I also need to say a few things to my fellow Subetan users.

I'm sorry for being snippy with you long ago. I was a big dummy for doing that. I hope you understand. You're a great friend, and you make beautiful HAs.

You're the most awesome friend I ever had on Subeta. I do miss you on the SB, though, but I'm glad you're happy now that you left it.

My deathly friend, we did have some ups and downs when we first spoke with each other, but now it's always good between each other.

Be aware that a kick-butt attitude can be awful terrible if you hurt someone in the process. Also, just because you hear me say odd things sometimes doesn't mean I have an odd way of saying things for everything.

You make beautiful HAs too, but it's always a close competition between you and Monarch. I can't choose between the both of youse.

If you're feeling down because someone makes fun of your appearance or any other junk, I'm here to help.

I'd like you to make a track for me sometime, you little musical lass, you.

I missed you so much when you mysteriously disappeared. Glad to see you back and chatting with us.

There are so many more I'd like to list here, but can't because the list is so long. You guys are always making things better. I hope you guys are doing well.

speaking from the experiences of someone who is only a few years out of being a teen I can honestly say these will be some of the years that will confuse you and carry some pretty heavy emotional weight. The best thing you can do is take things with a grain of salt, don't blow things to far out of proportion and to appreciate the good in your life without giving the bad much power. It can be hard but while you'll come out a bit knocked around you'll be the better for it and you'll have people who will stand by you through much of it. Glad to be back and I hope your 15th birthday is full of well wishes and happy things ^^