Alright, so I was raised Christian. I can't say as I have ever been a devout Christian I mean, I believed in God and the Holy Trinity and all that jazz, but I never really have had any enthusiasm for it. Hell, I haven't ever even read the Bible unless forced to do so and even now I won't read it unless there is some force behind it. Even when we went to church I'd open it and just let it sit there or pretend to read it. I mean, I think my parents could tell I wasn't really interested or cared about it to any extreme course.

But the point is, from what little bit of faith I do have, I feel myself slipping from it and I really don't want to or care to do anything about it. But at the same time I don't really want my parents to disown me which my dad has threatened to do and almost done in the past. So, what do I do? Do I continue to let myself feel trapped like this for the sake of my parents who I have to live with for now, or I do I let them know what my opinion is on this and face potentially being kicked out with nowhere to go?

I would hate for you to do anything that would make you bitter towards the religion in the future.

Is it that you don't believe in God anymore, or you never felt passionate about Christianity in the first place and you feel yourself pulling away even more so?

I'm not bitter towards it now. Frankly, I see why people are so strong in it, but as I have never been one of those people to have a life changing moment and make me accept religion, I really just don't feel a strong pull towards it.

And I haven't ever felt truly passionate. I mean sure, maybe one day I'll 'see the light' as they say and become one of those faithfully strong people, but as it is, I feel like I'm being pushed into something I haven't had the chance to accept fully for myself. Rather like it was something I HAD to do while growing up but now that I'm 20, I'd rather prefer to make a few mistakes of my own and then if I suddenly have a life realization down the road, then so be it.

DIsclaimer: I am sorry if this is a lot of tl;dr, and if any of this isn't really useful to you. As a Christian, I feel really passionate about helping those with doubts.

Ok, that's understandable. I am glad that you are still open to accepting it in your life later if that's where life takes you!

I kind of understand how you are feeling. When I was younger I never really had much passion for it at all. I believed, but I wasn't really interested. I think going to Church and having to deal with all the rules really pushed me away from what the religion is all about. Anyway, I stopped going, then slowly I stopped believing. I picked up another religion and quickly outgrew that. I started to believe in God again, and nothing huge happened really. I was struggling at the time so I clung to my beliefs to help me through it. I prayed a lot. I read somewhere once that when you're first starting out God will answer even the stupidest prayers just to help build your faith. That's what happened to me. Now I have a ton of faith, I'm just not part of the organized religion. I have my own beliefs and I'm sure a lot of them are the same as the Church. I'm not sure if your faith stems from the Church or from your heart. I think your problem is it's always stemmed from the church, and that's why it wasn't strong. I hope I'm making sense!

What your feeling is completely understandable, and I think a healthy reaction. Some people continue following blindly without thinking much for themselves, but most people don't. Religion is personal, and I do hope your parents understand that faith cannot be forced. Forcing you to stick with it will just push you farther away. Also, everyone has to face their dobuts sometime in their lives. They can't expect you to be different.

I'd like to point out that not everyone is going to have a huge life changing moment where they see the light and suddenly they have faith. Like I said before, I just gradually came back. So don't hold expectations on how it will happen as that can set you up for dissapointment. Keep your heart open! I don't want you to expect something and then become discouraged if it doesn't happen according to plan.

As far as your not being sure what to do with your parents. You could try to talk to them about how you feel. I'm not really sure how you would handle it, as I don't know your parents and how they would react to things said. However, I really don't agree with disowning someone just because they are losing faith. Especially when they are open to accepting it maybe some other time in their life. So, here are my points you may or may not want to bring up to them:

• God's children stray from Him all the time, but He is patient and waits for them to come back. He doesn't disown someone because their faith falters
• God would not want your parents to disown you; that is not an act of love, and to do so would be saying they don't have faith that God will work within you to bring you back.
• You're an adult and have not had any chance to get to know yourself spiritually.
• You can't force someone to have faith, to believe in something, and trying to force them will just make them bitter and increase chances they'll never start to believe

It just really bothers me that anyone would be mad at someone because their heart just isnt into it. This religion is based on love, patience, understanding, compassion, forgiveness, - but their actions are the complete opposite of that. I am sure what they are feeling is branched out of fear for you and your salvation, but it's the difficult times that you have to call upon your faith. It's easy to believe that God exists and everything will be ok when.. well, everything is ok. It's easy to be a good Christian when life isn't throwing you any obstacles. It's easy to have faith when you're not scared.

I don't think it's healthy to be going through the motions of a religion you don't believe in. Part of me is really scared I'm giving you bad advice, because I would hate for you to leave and follow a path that leads you away from God forever. I want you to know that my advice isn't me trying to force my beliefs down your throat, it comes from my heart. I really do hope you find God again, in your own way, and build a strong relationship with Him. I am sorry I do not have advice for you on how to deal with your parents, and I know you didn't really ask for spiritual advice, but this is what came to me. I'm not sure if you are doubting your belief in God, or if you just don't feel any passion in the religion. If it's the latter well, I don't think church is for everyone, and not every church is right for you. Maybe you need a break and would just like to reflect on what you believe is important to you, what you agree with and disagree with in your religion. However, if you are doubting your belief in God and in the Bible, then all I can say is I truly hope something happens in your life where you will find faith.

If you need anything, please feel free to comment me.