I've been with my boyfriend with 7 years now, been living with him for 3. Our first year living together we tried to move out west and we had to stay with his father for awhile, anyway shit kinda went to hell and we spent 3 days on a bus coming home.

Now 2 years later him and the rest of his family(mother and sister) want all of us to move back out west. The plans are supposed to be sometime in the next month or so, they've been talking about this for so long. No one knows anything, we don't know the date, where we are staying even if we have a place, yet we are selling our stuff and getting rdy to leave.

Appreantly Cory(my boyfriend) might be going out 2 weeks ahead with his sister, which is what happened the first time minus his sister. The first time the plan was for him to go there get a job and find a place. It took him 2 weeks to find work then he begged me to come out, 2 months ahead of when I was supposed to. We both found jobs, kept them then lost them because we revolted against 12-16 hour work days.

I often have serious personal issues, I hold onto alot far to much. I can't get over my childhood, which wasn't exactly good. I went through alot of stuff before meeting him. Things like hospitals and medication, drugs even. And after being with him, everything became, peaceful.

Sadly 7 years later, I still have these thoughts of hurting myself because I can't really get over my past. I mean, I was a kid right, its a HUGE impact on my life. I had a breakdown last night, again, about my past.

Cory made me come up with reasons for me to like myself. I couldn't think of anything, I mean, I look in the mirror and I see someone I don't know. I view myself far more different then I look.

Earlier in our relationship, me and him had a "link" so to speak, we knew everything the other was thinking. All each others secrets, fetishes, you know everything. For along time, I lost my side and I still can't get into his head, however, last night anything I was thinking he'd respond to it. I never knew he still could do that, I was crying in my head, and he comforted me.

I feel so high maintenance in our relationship, I feel like he does everything and all I contribute is stress. He said my looks are a bonus but thats not what he loves about me. When I ask him why he loves me he doesn't have a reason, he just "does".

He told me I'm stuck with him, I don't know if he meant that good or bad, but naturally he chuckled when he said it.

I just wish I could see myself the way he did, maybe I'd be a better person.

I guess, what I really want to know is does anyone else have someone thats always there, no matter what? Do you have that person that keeps you on your feet? Affects who you are and helps you make it through the day? not even a person, maybe a thing, like an animal?

This might be the wrong section, I expected it to be more about my relationship then me lol x.x

Wow, that was a lot to read ;)

Aww Cory is a sweetheart ❤️ And for me, my sister is always there for me :) We know everything about each other!

Well, we all have our demons right? Luckily you have your amazing boyfriend Cory to help you through it?

For me, I always have my boyfriend and best friend. He helps me out most of the time, but sometimes he can't since he has his own problems too, that he really tries to keep locked in the back of his head. He gets really upset when I talk about death, or childhood. So I have my best friend who is also practically my twin, we can talk about anything; we can just sort of look at each other and now what the other person is thinking. :)

Wow...honestly. This is exactly me.

I too have had a really rough go in my life...and I still suffer from it. I've been in a relationship with an amazing guy (who sounds exactly like yours) for around three years and sometimes I do feel as though I'm not really important in the relationship. When I have those moments, I always get close to him. Talk to him. Tell him how you're feeling. It's always nice to hear why and that he does love you (even though you already know it deep inside). Just know that there is an amazing person inside of you...even if you can't always see it. That's what he's there for.

It's great that you have such a good boyfriend :) The best of luck with the moving and stuff! But about the hurting yourself: have you thought about therapy?

My boyfriend knows me the best, really. Even when I don't really want to open up because I am convinced I'm just being silly, he's there for me until I get better.

I've been through alot of doctors. They seem to either overshoot what I'm trying to explain or not care at all.

I've had one call me bipolar and another say I'm maniac depressant, and another just say I'm ok, just need to not think so much

My best friends. ❤️ They put up with all of my crazyness, and love me anyways. :)

Your Cory sounds like a real sweetie, btw.