I have such a bad problem. My friends and I usually get in minor depressions around the same time, yet whenever they have problems I just bottle my own depression away so they can vent to me for support. I'll often say I'm fine when I'm not, just so that they won't have to put up with the crap that I have going on in my life.

However

Whenever my emotions being bottled up explodes, I tend to have a breakdown. I'll often blame my depression on whatever I'm doing at the time (for instance if I'm drawing and it explodes I'll say I'm the worst artist ever). The worst part is that I can't share these emotions with anyone without it making it seem like a pity-search.

Not really asking for advice, but its nice to vent out here.

It really freakin' sucks ._.

-pats- I understand this =( Just talking about it can help- when I'm feeling paticularly low I write about it, it helps me get it off my chest. I would attempt to find a non-destructive way of letting off the steam.

Release it slowly - when you start noticing your problem, rather than when you can't take it anymore.

Hope you feel better!

Oh, that sounds like... they're maybe just 'using' you? They don't know it... but. They should be aware of the fact that one person isn't able to bear all the problems of others without getting problems themselves. shrug Not blaming your friends or you... just saying.

If you need someone to talk to ~ points at self

I can totally relate. In fact, my little slump has come around and, I don't know, I just never feel it's right of me to dump my woes on others, even my closest friends. They all say it's all right, but I still feel bad. And it's very similar to you as an artist. I'll be writing something and if there's one awkward phrase I don't like or if I think I'm coming off as pretentious, I'll literally burst into tears and run into the bathroom. I'm always a bit of a perfectionist, but during my slumps it's something I really need to take to clear my mind and let off steam on my own. Sometimes some time alone is all you need, you know?

So I'd suggest something like that, if you're one who likes to be alone. Give yourself a moment by yourself and think about what's making you upset and how you can fix it. If you do want to talk to other people, don't feel bad about it. Pick a close friend or a family member or someone you know is there to listen to you. I know it seems hard, but if they say they'll listen, they will.:)