yes I will have someone with me...

and the reason i am going is not just routine it is I get out of breath just taking a shower and my chest and left arm have been hurting me for a while now plus I get light headed and dizzy quite often during the day while walking around the house from room to room I am hoping for the best but expecting the worst ...

I already take 12 pills in the morning and 9 at night I don't want to take anymore medicine I hate taking pills I also hate not being in control of my actions which I am not if I do not take this medication bad things can happen to the people I love and I don't want that at all I would never be able to forgive myself if I ever hurt anyone in my family .... but without the meds i take I do not have control over my actions I know I am a nice person but without my meds I am a scary person I am completely out of control and could hurt someone I love for no reason at all and that scares me I am just really messed up and I just wish I could go back to the person I was a long time ago a nice loving and caring person without the meds and not a scary monster when I am not ..

Lots of love to all of you I really love everyone more then you could possibly know ... thank you all for being here and giving me encouragement thank you

Sorry your not feeling well. Get better real soon.

It sounds like you will be taking the lair with you tomorrow!! I know that you will be in my thoughts and my heart all day. Big extras bear hugs 💋 ❤

Dance the nigth away.....

Get some rest and feel better!!!

~ Thank you!! I think it went well

~ Thank you!! Yes, my ride made it back from their trip. I think it went well

Still recovering. I will follow up with the doc on Friday.

I hope the VA gave you some answers and had some help for you.

Thanks Anonymous for the Picture Frame of Romance I was shocked, but not surprised first thing in the morning!

not really have to go back next week for more test so I won't know anything for a little bit probably not until next week when I go back but thats ok next week I have to be there at 730 am so I have to leave no later then 530 am... I just got home and finally got to eat for the first time today

WOW!!!! 534 Notifications!!! That is what I logged on to...... sweating LOL

Want to thank and for the sweet smooches ** mmmmmmwwwuuuhhaaaaahhhhhh**** (smoochies to you both and big hugs)

OMG...... ........ Do you need some chapstick my dear??!!!!! I totally feel the love with all those kisses <3 Wish I could have smooched you back! I will go change my outfit, and if I remember to dance before I disappear again, I am saving a special dance for you!!! Thank you so much guys for thinking of me. I love you all, and you all have a special place in my heart.

What test do they have left for you? Did they give you any idea at all?

yes they did its for cardio its the test where they hook you up to a machine and then have you walk on a treadmill but I can't do the treadmill so they are going to put an I.V. in my arm and then give me a medicine that is supposed to make it seem like I am exercising or something like that anyway that is what is for I hope they can find whats wrong so they can fix it

Will wait with you in spirit for those results.

HUGS mwahmwahmwah ❤️ twiiiirl Had to make sure you had a couple of hearts when you got back. =D

well thank you I am worried though not for me for my friends and family if something happens to me I won't know but they will and it will affect them a lot so I am prepared for anything cuz you really never know when the shit is gonna hit the fan ...

my dungeon has a bowl shape to it so there is no escape lol

- yay!! Happy to see you post you busy gal :) Your event list must have exploded :) Hugs hugs hugs...hope you can come back and dance a little!

- glad you made it home safe and sound. Hope the tests will find what is going on and a treatment that works.

- Inviting you to some dances...and you can dance carefully on your good leg :)

thank you yes I made it home it rained the whole way home so it sucked actually for the drive back but I was just glad to get home so I could eat I couldn't eat anything until my test were done

too long a day with no food ...I would have not been able to make the drive without something to eat...hope you had a nice dinner :)

The concern is for you and yours. I do realize how one that is loved can affect others.

I hope results are good next week. Please pack a lunch with you! Taking care of yourself is taking care of your family.

Hope your test results are good my friend, sorry to hear you are going through this.....I will say a prayer for you and your family. Hugs...