What is one of your earliest childhood memories?

I don't really have any one distinct earliest memory, but just a lot of jumbled memories from around kindergarten/first grade (ages 5-6). Like, I'll have little bits of a memory, but I have no clue how old I was. I remember spending time at my grandparents house and they always had a little coin purse full of pennies that I could spend on candy and I remember learning to roller skate on the side walk in front of our house with those Fisher Price roller skates that adjusted to fit around your shoe and were, in retrospect, super janky and I don't know how I didn't die. And in one of those school years, we had a girl from Japan (I think she was an embassador or consulate's daughter, but idk for sure because according to google, there is no embassy/consulate location near where I was at the time) and I remember learning to use chopsticks to pick up mini marshmallows and getting to keep the chopsticks, which I accidentally broke one of a few years later.

What is one of your earliest childhood memories?

The earliest thing I can remember is being in my parents' old apartment (we moved to a house when I was 2 or so) and looking up to see the Minnie Mouse puppet above me. It's just a moment of memory but it's pretty vivid.

After that I mostly remember playing at my mom's friend's house with her kids and the kids at her daycare.

What I remember most vividly is watching Shrek with my big sister, and asking her 'are those real ogres' and she had to try and explain the concept of animation to a 4 year old. Haha.

Yeah, I don't remember anything before age 4 really...apparently I didn't even start talking until 3. So that's kind of interesting.

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just two regular ear piercings. i got them when i was in high school and almost passed out afterward. LOL i had to lie there and the piercer was SO concerned. i would love tattoos and more piercings but it's not safe rn. also, i'm broke. :')

i remember bits of preschool. mostly the one time they had blue paint and i decided to paint myself blue. i want to know why my mom LET me do that lol.

I don't really think I have strong early memories? All I remember are just random still images.

Honestly I don't remember much before 2000, anything earlier is either 404 or dismissed as fabricated. There may lie what planted my aversion to relationships.

I choose not to remember, my childhood sucked. My life began at age 18. (and ended again at 40.)

What is one of your earliest childhood memories?

Eating some Angel Delight (UK pudding thing) with my Nan Doris... RIP Nanny, you were the best there ever was!

What is one of your earliest childhood memories?

Sitting outside with my dad on a bench late one night and eating watermelon. I remember being really excited, the smell of the watermelon, the feeling of being covered in its juices, my feet not touching the ground while I swung my legs back & forth, and looking up at my dad to see a huge smile on his face.

I pretty sure he picked the watermelon out of the garden and cut it up while we were sitting there because every time I cut into a perfectly ripe watermelon, the smell of it brings that memory fragment right back.

As a late answer to my favorite quote, I've somehow gone blank-minded, but there is one that sticks out - "Far and away the best prize that life has to offer is the chance to work hard at work worth doing." - Theodore Roosevelt ^ Which follows suit with a tiny tattoo I'd like to get. I want to get "Live to better" written very tiny on my forearm, along with a small frame tattoo (it's a vertical-style piece of art, generally with mountains/sun). I've wanted these for a few years, but not sure I could ever commit!

- I'm late but I totally saw your HA. PASS PASS PASS hahaha As for the tattoos, can I ask what tattoos you wanted, if that's not too personal?

- That idea for a little sun tattoo is so adorable - it would be a wonderful way to have a little reminder. <3

- I love love your favorite quote and the thoughts behind it. That's beautiful - it's not easy to recognize when you're in the wrong place, and, further, it's even rougher to get up and do something about it. It takes strength to make a change. <3

- How do you feel about horror scenes with insects? Scolipede low-key bothers me, even in-game, LOL.

Late answer, but I think my favorite insect would be a praying mantis. Can't really explain why though, I just think they're cool.

As for one of my earliest childhood memories.... I remember my grandparents were visiting and my grandma was sleeping in my room on the twin bed that would be mine when I got big enough (I was still sleeping in a crib at this point), and I remember waking up very early in the morning before my grandma woke up, and just standing up in my crib watching her sleep, and thinking about how I needed to be quiet so I wouldn't wake her up. Kind of a weird memory.

It's worth a shot.

Today's question:

What is your personality like?

Bonus question: Would you like to change something about your inner self?

My personal answer: I am quite extroverted and extremely loud. The loud and annoying part is definitely something I'd like to be different. I feel like sometimes, it even reaches the obnoxious level. I am brutally honest and that's something I like about myself since it always gave me the confidence to speak my mind. I reflect a lot in the sense of thinking about things like my place in the world and current events as well as life issues but luckily not to the extent that I question myself and fall into a deep, dark pit. Quite the contrary, I'd say I'm a realist but a truly, genuinely happy one. Always been a happy person and I appreciate it because I know, I shouldn't take it for granted. I am quite messy and lazy and procrastination could be my middle name but I also love to try new things and get out of my comfort zone every once in a while, especially if it's connected to travelling. I'm quite spontaneous and I like doing dumb stuff (if the consequences are not too severe) . In connection to other people, I try to listen and I am genuinely interested in other people lives and opinions which is why I would chooses deep talk over small talk any day of the week. I do not handle pressure really well and I get bored very quickly but I am also very easily impressed. I need need need social interaction and I think my friends would probably describe me as the goofy one since I lack a sense of shame. I'm the type who will go up to sing karaoke in front of the whole bar completely sober, knowingly I can't sing for shit. I'm not "girly" (hate that expression but usually people understand it best ) and I won't change that for anyone. If I could change something intrinsic, I'd probably like to be smarter. I feel really dumb standing next to my PhD mom, PhD dad and almost phd sister because I just am dumber. Socially, except for being a little too nosy, I think I would probably keep my personality as is. Having the ability to give a quite objective self reflection gives me the impression I'm alright. Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm not everybody's cup of tea but I am my own cup of tea and I like myself. :)

I guess my personality is... a bit messed up?

I mean... I can be nice and friendly but I can also be cold and bitchy. But I'm also accepting and loving and trusting to a fault. But I can also be bitter and spiteful depending on the situation. Eh I try and be a good person though...

Haha thanks, I wish I could remember what she said! Probably something insane. She used to make up lies all the time to scare me. She loved how gullible I was. I may have teased her in the same way if I had been the older sister though, lol.

As for today's question:

My personality is...complicated. I think that's the case with most people though.

I extend a lot of compassion and loyalty towards others. And by others I mean my very small circle of friends. I'm a quality over quantity type. Kind of a lone wolf too. I think my main issue is that I don't apply this same compassion towards myself. I am extremely self-conscious and hard on myself. Everyone is their own worst critic, but with me it's pretty damn bad. I can partially blame it on my childhood (my mom was very critical and unloving towards me), but I'm 23 now, and I have the power to be nicer to myself. I've gotten a little bit better over the years, I did see a therapist who helped me out a bit, and I've read a couple books here and there. My father has the same issue too, so we've also talked about it.

Me being hard on myself wouldn't be such a big deal if it didn't constantly spill over into my work and social life, but it does, and I fear that it makes me look like I'm trying to portray myself as a victim, when I'm not. It's a changing process. Some days are better than others. We'll see what happens when I start my new job on the 24th of this month. I'm trying to tell myself "Okay, you're a human being, you're going to make mistakes. Everyone in every job makes mistakes. It's not a moral failing on your part, it's just a mistake, and nothing more. Don't beat yourself up. Do take responsibility if it was your fault, but don't take blame for things that were out of your control."

It's easier said than done, but I'll have to try. At least I'm aware of my problem, that makes it easier to recognize it when it's happening, and easier to fix down the line.

What is my personality like? Well, actually, I have no idea. I have always thought about the fact that people can describe themselves and their personalities while I'm not really sure what to say or who I even am. There are only few things I guess I know about myself. I'm so terribly shy, very anti-social in a very unhealthy way, but if I'm faced with a situation where I'd have to be the center of attention, I would worry so much about it to the point I'd even wish to disappear just to not have to do it, but when I'm actually standing there and doing it, I would do it and even be very impressive. That's all I know for sure, I guess..

About my inner self... My inner self causes me unbearable suffering everyday. I have OCD and BPD and I can't tell which parts are me and which parts are these disorders. I definitely consider myself a unique person and is glad that I'm not the same as everyone else, but at the same time, I wish I could wake up as somebody else with a different face and a different life. I have been feeling that way more than ever in the recent months. I just can't describe how painful it is to be "me". :(

I'm sorry if that was too much. ^^;

I was literally writing my post when you posted that question 😂 Hahah, that is a legitimate question xD I'll try to make it a little broader for everyone to answer but I can give you a precise answer from just me since I obviously am a little bit behind. So here is my poor attempt at an explanation: Life has been quite eventful lately. I am part of a vegan community here in Germany now which means meetings, calls, chats etc. and I joined Greenpeace. Additionally, I started seeing someone (nothing serious) and I meet with lots of friends now. The last thing is something I feel both marvelous and terrible about. I adore my friends but my Corona-conscious tells me to stay at home. University stuff is pressing and my tutor job is now another subject (biology). If that wasn't enough,I'm involved in my daycare sister's (I grew up with her) wedding which means shopping, bachelorette party, gift and stuff like that. Lastly, since I am back in Germany now, I have to catch up with all of my doctor's appointments. Tomorrow is my dentist appointment... :/ There you have all my current distractions :)

I'm a T-600 that learned to value life.

As for an inner change...physically remove that insipid part of me that thinks my problems are solved by being in a relationship.

This isn't treated like a snakebite, using the same venom.

I don't think I've seen any bugs in a horror setting before, but I'm not big on those kinds of movies. xD I think I had seen something with roaches in Tales from the Crypt once? Or a show like it, that was pretty gross or whatever but it doesn't bother me too much when the bugs aren't actually in the room with me. I think they're fascinating and will watch things about them, but you put me in a room with one and I'll freak out.

Oh no poor Scolipede XD I actually just got two plushies of it from my husband for my birthday LOL

Also ty for the item!

What is your personality like?

I tend to be quite introverted around people I don't know, but I've been told I come off as extroverted and confident. I'm really, really not. I keep to myself where possible, bundle up with my lovely collection of books and manga, chat with my friends online and just... try to breathe and relax I suppose. I'd like to say I'm friendly and willing to help those around me, but sadly I also get frightened easily and I do not handle any form of conflict well at all.

Would you like to change something about your inner self?

I mentioned before that I suffer both Depression and Anxiety. If I could perhaps have the ability to lock away these issues then I think I could actually be at peace with myself. Having said that, I really wish I was more confident too...

Today's question:

How do you deal with conflict?

My personal answer: Had to pose this question, because yesterday was the first time in my life that I encountered someone who was outspokenly against a certain group of people and literally said he hated them and was disgusted by them. I was so shocked and immediately asked for reasons, experiences and whatnot but there weren't any. Just sheer hate. I tried to give arguments to show him that all humans are the same but he wouldn't listen. I have never had a conversion like that face-to-face before (Sure, some typical minor experiences but never to that extent) so I was truly at my wit's end since no arguments were helping and I felt like just quitting the conversation would be like giving up fighting for the aforementioned group of people.