I know those feelings of hopelessness and frustration intimately--not the back issues, but everything else. It sucks, and I'm sorry people can't relate in your daily life. It's very disheartening.

Thank you. You're too kind. ;3;

You're welcome. <3

Hey there everyone, fellow spoonie here!

I haven't been on Subeta in quite a while. Naturally, I go through periods of being active vs. not being super duper active. This time feels like I'm gonna be more on here.

The chronic illnesses I deal with are mostly depression and bipolar disorder. There are days where it's so crippling that I can't bring myself to get out of bed unless my boyfriend comes and helps get me out. I deal with a toxic living situation at the moment, living with my stepdad (both my bio parents passed away, mom was 3 years ago, dad was 2), so it brings a lot of stress that makes my issues flare up. On top of my mental issues, I also deal with physical issues. Herniated discs L3-L5. Makes walking or doing most things hard. I also deal with an undiagnosed issue with my nerves which I still need to get diagnosed but all the symptoms seem to scream fibromyalgia.

Even with all of my issues, I try to keep myself busy by doing models like Gundams or Zoids or painting. I also do art to make some money as well since holding down a normal job or even getting one with everything has been hard. But I'm still trying.

Welcome. I'm sorry life has dealt you such a bum hand. I hope you find a way to get out of that awful living situation soon. <3 I hope we can be supportive for you!

My sympathies for the fibromyalgia-like symptoms, whatever it ends up diagnosed as (and best wishes for you during the diagnosis time!) Nerve pain is a nightmare. Well any pain is a nightmare. Forget I said the first thing xD I hope today is a low pain day for you <3 How's things today?

Hope I'm not intruding. It's nice to meet you and I hope you are having a good day! Like so many here I'm in pain, and have been in pain for an ungodly amount of time.

This started out so well but now I'm having a tired-defeated-pain moment. Admitting that is weird but, you know the totally wrung out barely moving, breathing is so hard you cry times?? I'm at the almost-crying point just before that actual crying point. Anyhow ....It'll pass, and the level of pain will decrease, I think I just needed to reach out before it gets too much can't do that either. Isolating myself in general is a problem of mine that I'm trying to workING on. I'm also trying working on improving the messages I'm sending myself. Word choices and all that. Example: I'm not trying. I'm doing.

The dog is barking and I can't. Anyhow, thank you for giving me the opportunity to be honest with these feelings for a bit. I hope I'm not just howling into the void, and that someone reads this with kindness. Wishing everyone low pain days and sunshine for the soul.

No worries. Welcome! I'm sorry you need us, but glad you found us. I read you with kindness and empathy. Isolation is a bear and a half, so please reach out any time.

Thank you ;W; I am glad I found this thread too <3 How are you??

How's things everyone??

Recurring ear infections are kicking my ass, but I'm doing okay otherwise. Coughing less, so I'm on the mend I suppose. :)

How are you doing?

Ouch. My sympathies but I'm really glad you're coughing less! I hope you can get some rest to let the infection run its course. I'm doing wonderful at the moment. Lower pain than last time and got some sleep which is miraculous. I'm currently trying to convince my spoiled doggie that I should be able to at least type a sentence (between my 'real purpose in life' according to her of scratching her ears and cuddling her). XDD She is not convinced and has just left to go pout.

Thanks. I'm trying to. I slept a lot yesterday!

Oh, wonderful! I'm so happy for you.

Pupper! Aww. What kind of dog is she?

I'm so sorry for the delay I hope things are ok Goose is a grumpy old lady chihuahua that I adopted last year. She's got some odd behavior from going through a couple of rescues and god knows what, but she's so sweet and cuddly with me. She also has just a few teeth so her tongue sticks out XDD Picture of my bby Do you have any pets??

I'm doing better than I was last time we spoke, actually, so that's fine. I hope you're well!

GOOSE IS ADORABLE. I love her. Cuddle her for me!

I don't have any pets that live with me. I share time with my mom's cat, from when we lived together. I miss my Izzi :(

Thank you thank you! Goose has been being totally spoiled with cuddles (I think if she had thumbs she'd glue herself to me so I can always be petting her) I'm sure she appreciated the cuddles from you and I'm sorry you can't cuddle Izzy ;a;

I've been doing wonderfully except I''m on the tail end of one of those sleepless nights from pain. SO Hope I'm not abusing the ping (let me know if I overstep!)

but What do you do during a sleepless-from-symptoms night??

I eat something with 5-10 mg THC in it. 5 if I have to work the next day, 10 if I don't. That may or may not be an option for you depending on where you live. I have celiac disease and asthma (no smoking!) so I usually use KIVA products: KIVA chocolate bars that can be broken into squares (never eat a whole one omfg no); Petra mints, Camino gummies. PLUS gummies are also good and come in varying ratios of CBD/THC. (I take CBD all the time; it does not make you high and allows me to stay on prescription NSAIDS rather than opioids).

Been fighting ear problems still. Tired a lot. Sorry I'm not around like I wanted to be...

Hello again. :) You're welcome! I don't think you overstepped the ping, but I don't own it, so I don't know!

That's a great idea.

I've always been a medical user, being stoned is not my favourite recreation :)

Oh, same. I hate feeling out of control.

Hello everyone

I’m also an older player on Subeta with several medical health issues that prevent me from doing many things in life. Subeta has been a great distraction for a decade or so. It would be great to meet similar friends who have trouble sleeping, coping with pain, keeping relationships due to medical set backs, pain etc. Also I have no friends physically to rely on so often feel isolated. I would enjoy have having friends to chat to daily, if anyone else is in need of similar. I love animals, science and photography. Could talk forever about animals! :) Look forward to meeting new friends N ⭐️