First off can I just say y'all crazy! the last 24 hours has been the biggest boost my heart and soul have felt in like.. ever 💞 💞 💞

Second I never should have found this emoji cheat sheet Keith linked.. its tooo much fun :squirrel:

Third I just figured out how I ended up with 1k coins for Esthers in my inventory. I dont have enough words to express how that feels.. for taking care of absentee me during Vesnali, I got to the events and all the flowers yall left and coins.. seriously you guys, I had no idea where the coins came from with the 1500 events on top of them until now. Thank you so much. So very much.

The BIG question I dont know if Im ready to even talk about this but the days continue to go by without asking what I think. I was removed from the lodge as staff during the Standing Rock conflict, I wasnt aware of it until I came back and um.. well, I just wasnt and thats that. Anywho.. I have no idea how many sbq items I've got put away for what I use to do every october there. I have given this no thought whatsoever because I still miss her and not gonna lie. I still cry. I want Marreshaann back, we had more trouble to get into.. but I dont always get my way.

So because Ive got to get my foot elevated and look after Nica for a few hours and this might get lost in a mountain of pings and events anyways I'm gonna put this out there and someone help me remember who says what because majority rules -- October 31. The reason I almost left right after returning and the reason I got to know such an amazing woman is just around the corner.

In Marreshaanns honor, I want to give everything Ive stashed away. But how? To just my lair, to just my lair and her friends, put everything in donations Halloween evening, spread it out over the day.. Im not even sure I can handle doing it but it should be done, on her special day.

BUT! IF we decide to do it this month, I have one rule. I want to give whoever's got the time some things to anon. give away. I want each of them to kinda watche the forums for a few days, see who could use some random kindness, who reminds them of our friend in one way or another, who has that spark.. I don't need to know who or why, and if more little gifts are needed I'll get them. And I want you to send them while we do one of the other in honor of Marreshaann. We stay totally anon, but we make sure the gift box message mentions how awesome she was. Thats my only decision in deciding.

And Im crying again my cue to ping and run

Let me know your honest thoughts after you've mulled it over, tonight/tomorrow I'll get busy looking in my vault to see what we have to work with. Luv ya!

Super sweet idea, love. ❤

To be honest... I only just heard about her passing a few days ago. Pretty sure that it hasn't entirely sunk in yet. Like... it's sorta surreal still at this point? :( And it's weird because everyone has had some time to sit with it... but it's totally fresh for me.

I have nothing else to say. Just... :(

.. I love the idea! Just a thought, I don't think you being removed from the Lodge had anything to do with Standing Rock. I was also removed and had to create a whole new account. No clue what happened. Couldn't find my old forum posts or anything, so.. Whatever. Big huge hugs to you.. You certainly have been missed! <3

what a lovely thing to do, I know I have been giving away a few higher rated items randomly as it seemed the right thing to do,

as for lodge cant help there, havent even used it in ages,

for the loss of Joan as with Gina going to take along time and dont think will ever fully heal, just lessen over time

I think it's a lovely idea and a great tribute. Like I just heard about her passing a few days ago and I'm still processing it. She was a very special person.

Thank you. Hugs

I thought Laurie was on staff though? Like... she helped update SubetaLodge?

crying.... It still hurts. , I love your idea. Turn pain into a powerful force for good to show those we know that they are loved, wanted, needed and special.

i had a friend here that many knew as well..i want her to be remembered as well p;ease...karen...her name was her username...she was an active animal spokesperson she loved them all..she was in her thirties and died about 2 weeks ago sadly..i think i would make a big bonfire that we can all get around to toast to the wonderfullness of the friends we had and their spiritss that will stay with us forever in our hearts and lives as we all go forward with our many things.

i LOVE all my friends here so much...

Those we love remain with us for love itself lives on, and cherished memories never fade because a loved one’s gone. Those we love can never be more than a thought apart, for as long as there is memory, they’ll live on in the heart.

crying now.... missing them too feeling very moved by the love here

WAIT WHAT?! you mean they're talking about OUR Karen? As in Karen RocketLauncher, us, didnt like to post much and "My mom thinks I'm cute" Karen?? She didn't even tell me she was sick, she kept telling me to keep fighting, to stand proud with my people, what the hell happened??

So sweet

ooo heartstrings pulled with your lovly sentiment thank you for that

..yes our karen...i will try to get the link to her eulogy if you will i am devastated and yes the rocketlaunher karen sigh

.. HAPE [ C ] ​a shape that is used to mean love сердечко

someone's deepest feelings and true character душа, сердце She has a kind heart.

beloved ​~~very much loved~~~ любимый holy bananas batman i wouldnt even know how to enunciate these symbols hahha hope you are a quick study!!!...will the young ones speak english do you know..the 15 yr old,,,my cousins in germany all learned english as oart of their general studies.

you are very much on my mind as you full steam ahead onto your new life!!!

Always sad when we lose someone on here. Doesn't matter if you did not know them. Always, always so sad.

https://www.newcomergreenbay.com/Obituary/161373/Karen-Bauer/Green-Bay-Wisconsin here is the link ..i pinged to there as well

i think NOW we are CELEBRATING and HONORING their lives..not sadly just apt to who they were how we interacted with them or sweet funny memories..to friends here n gone just a CELEBRATION OF LIFE...not deeply sad at all

I found it, I would know that face anywhere. It hurts to realize she was in pain but never said a word. A giver is a giver is a giver I guess.

Now we have some rethinking to do. Karen would straight kill us if we make too big of a deal out of loosing her and yall know dang well she's have to wait until Joan was thru with us first .. so we do something for both of them since Karen mentioned a few times she was jealous I was born on the best holiday.

oh yeah it was, I wasnt able to perform my duties, I was out of state.

But being told in an email or comment or something would have been nice. I had no idea until I went to add some Sbq things. Lotta years and that stung. Deep.

No matter, when I was here I busted my ass to keep things current and I'm really proud of that, I worked from the early stages of the database being set in play until last year. Years of adding things, a few times in the beginning of SubetaLodge I added so many items over some weekends I broke their spreadsheets which I didnt think was possible. Not bad eh?

We can honour our friends with a secret gifting which is what they would have done, All 3 of them, Gina Joan and Karen. Joan use to advise me on my breast cancer awareness giveaways, it'll be perfect. We just gotta work out the deets. I hate details, they always get in the way

and those who comealong and think I forgot to ping you I totally love the idea of A celebration of life, thats a perfect way to sum it up. So how should we do this? Do mysterious gifters still show up like before? With a gif and something that was like being a luminaire elf or something? We could do that.

And someone tell me HOW in the hell Im the only one with a busted HA again. Ive tried everything and it doesnt show for me, can anyone else see it?

heart soul heart favorite This is what it all translates to. Thanks for sharing about Karen. :) Nice to hear from you . Hugs

Having fun but missing being able to be here more than I have thanks i am always takung precaution when i travek here or other places.

.. but here occasionally is better then not at all! :)

Anon gifts are still a thing... the box is still there to check anyway. I haven't used it since I got back.

No idea why your HA is broken. Mine was messed up for days... on top of switching skins, I was wearing only green and black socks. Like.. no matter what I did, it put my socks back on and nothing else. They're just a bit wonky.

In other HA news... I got my Giger skin back! :D FINALLY! I spent almost all of my wizard tokens ( :( ) and got 41 new skins before I finally got it. Hopefully there won't be a token shop alert for a few days... I have too few for comfort.